Let Me In

I had to step over numerous people while trying to get to the door. I had to overcome many obstacles before reaching this point. I have been discouraged by people who have turned back along the way. They told me that you wouldn't open the door. Others told me that someone is already inside. I refused to turn away, because I knew I was the right one. I get to your door and I'm pleeding to get inside. I know I am not what you want physically, but emotionally, spirtiually, and mentally, I'm here baby. Each day you shut the door in my face. But I refuse to go away, because within my heart, I know you're the one. Let me in. I will fix the damage that the last person inflicted on your wounded heart. I will not mishandle your heart like the first one did. I am differet, and I only can show you, if you let me in. Let me in please and show you how special you are. I know that this is the reason why you have this "House" now, so that not anyone can just walk in your life, and do as they please with your heart, body, mind, and soul. I know this "HOUSE" was built to protect you and keep out everybody because you are scared to trust again. I will come and pick up the pieces of your broken heart and put it back together. You are scared to believe that someone can actually come around and treat you like you are suppose to be treated. Treat you like you was designed and created to be treated. But believe me. I know its hard to see my sincerity and honesty because your sight has been blocked by the continues pain, hurt, and lies. Even if you turn me down today, I promise I will be back at your doorsteps tommorrow. I will come back everyday until...You let me in x3

Rain

Why I must suffer,

How long must I say on this route,

It is getting tougher,

I need to find the solution,

The answer,

But this problem is swelling inside of me,

like a cancer.

After contemplating,

Anticipatin,

Debating,

And waiting.

I realized that love was the source of my agony,

Why can't I find that right girl,

Is God mad with me?

I yern for her pressence,

Her essence,

nd her blessings.

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder,

Why can't she wake up and smell the foldgers,

And realize,

That even we are both goin through rain,

We will rise.

I have gone through the rain,

Been through the pain,

Can you be my gain?

Can you by ma New Edition,

The one on a cold night,

That im kissing,

This was my mission,

To make you Listen,

And realize that you're what I'm Missin <33

Crawl

How do we return back to the love of the same ones we hurt? How dare we turn around and ask for them to trust us, when we took their trust and threw it out the window. How can I ask you to hold my hand, as we return to the happiest moments in which we stood hand in hand, heart to heart? Sometimes in life we make the wrong decisions resulting in a split from us and our deepest desires. We stand at a crossroad as we try to figure out how can we "Crawl" back to the top. We stand at the crossroad, wondering if it is even possible for us to go back, to rewind and replay the moments that we desire, but seem so long ago. We ourselves, don't even how we are going to get things back like they use to be. We don't even know if its even possible. But all we need is that hand, and the trust from that person. All we want is the hand that has been bruised by our stupid decision, premature judgment, insecurities, and pride. All we want is the trust, that has been detiorated by our lies, and deceitful nature. Just give me your hand, and all my crooked paths would be made straight. Trust and believe that I am a new person. I am asking you to look past my unforgettable past. We can return back to love, if you just hold my hand. That's all I am asking for.. for you to hold my hand, and let me guide us back to love. I know trusting won't be easy, but just let it happen.... x3

Battlefield

Why sometimes in life just when we find that little light in a dark room, it seems to disappear? Why somtimes when we finally find that carton of milk for our cereal.. theres nothing in it? Sometimes after months of having no love in life, months of being hurt by partners who don't truly know the definition of a relationship, months of lies, we find a savior. We find someone who is willing to look past our imperfections, who is willing to come and turn our frown upside down, who is willing to shield us when we are most vulnerable. But we are scared.. we think that it is too good to be true, or that they might've made a mistake in choosing us, so we either put up a fight, or try to rush into things immediately. We don't want to take things at a calm rate, because we are scared of going back to that lonely person who would just sit on the train while a couple is right across from us cuddled up. We fear going back to that lil boy whos biggest fear was being all alone for the rest of life. We don't want to go back to being that lil girl who never experienced the satisfaction of a true signicant "other". We don't have to rush into things, or take a back seat because that person didn't make a mistake. He or she has found something in you that takes their breath away. They have found something in you, that makes you want to sing love songs on a rainy day. They look at you, and don't see the imperfections that you label yourself with, they don't see what everybody else see. They don't see something normal or average, but indeed unique.. Don't be afraid to take this risk, just let it happen... x3

Am I good enough?

Why do many girls have inner problems within themselves because a certain boy didn't tell them they are pretty? Why do they eat more food, so that there butt can look better and so more boys would look at them, like they look at their friends. Why do you cry yourself to sleep because you don't look like that girl on tv who was dancing all up in the Best I ever Had video. Why do you cry yourself to sleep just because it is taking longer for you to develop than your other friends. Why do you pop out your chest when that certain boy come around? Why do you starve yourself just because none of your friends are chubby, and they get all the attention in school? No matter how much a boy tell you look good or tell you he like the way you look, it still wont help you, unless you realize for yourself that you are gorgeous and that you were fearfully made in God image and likeness. That you are unique and special, and if no boy or girl can appreciate that then that is not your problem, but indeed theirs. It is not good to depend on someone to make you happy because when they leave how will you feel about yourself? You need to develop a love for yourself within. You must stop depending on boys to make you happy. You must stop depending on significant others in general, to make you happy. You must build up your character and realize that you are you and nobody can be like you and that is the BEST THING ABOUT YOU. And at the end of the day if a boy don't like you for who are, then thats his business, and that his problem. Don't ever alter yourself for anybody becaue their opinion doesn't matter. How will you altering yourself and making somebody like you, make you happy? They are falling for a false image, which is not really you. Ladies please stop depending on significant others to make you happy, because that is only momentarily happiness. It will go away when that person go away. I'm not saying I'm perect at this, but I am indeed trying...x3

Forgivness

This blog isnt about anybody in particular, just different thoughts in my head. Sometimes we hold on too many things. We choose to hold grudges and malice in our hearts for things that people have done to us. Sometimes we have legitimate reasons for holding these grudges, but other times it can be little things such as a meaningless arguement. I admit that no one is perfect and holding grudges is sometimes the most logically accurate thing to do when that bf cheated on you for the last time, when that best friend told your business for the last time, when your step father molested you for the last time, and/or when you was misused and abused for the last time. But holding grudges hold us back in life if we truly want to admit or not. When we cant forgive that girlfriend for sleeping with your bestfriend, you learn to adapt trust issues for everybody. You never trust another girl with your heart, or another person with a friendship. You start to mistreat girls because you was mistreated when all you wanted was true love. When all you wanted was companionship. You will never let another homeboi get too close to you because you think that at the snap of a finger he will violate you. I don't care what anybody say talkin about he dead to me, or she dead to me, its not true unless you forgive. Because if you continue to hold this person in your heart, they will continue to influence many of your decisions in life. Forgiviness doesn't mean being all smiley and up in that person face or even banging with that person again, it just means you are releasing them from all the anger that you hold against them. That is the only true time that you can honestly move on with your life is when you forgive. Forgive those who hurt you intentionally and unintentionally. Forgive that girlfriend in the past who has hurt you. Forgive that ex bff who had betrayed you. Move on..

Married young by *Leshauna*

Getting Married at a young Age

How many of you guys believe that the younger you get married shorter the
marriage will last?
This issue has come up with alot of young people I talk to. I think marriage is
marriage weather
or not it happens at young age.


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