Let Me In

I had to step over numerous people while trying to get to the door. I had to overcome many obstacles before reaching this point. I have been discouraged by people who have turned back along the way. They told me that you wouldn't open the door. Others told me that someone is already inside. I refused to turn away, because I knew I was the right one. I get to your door and I'm pleeding to get inside. I know I am not what you want physically, but emotionally, spirtiually, and mentally, I'm here baby. Each day you shut the door in my face. But I refuse to go away, because within my heart, I know you're the one. Let me in. I will fix the damage that the last person inflicted on your wounded heart. I will not mishandle your heart like the first one did. I am differet, and I only can show you, if you let me in. Let me in please and show you how special you are. I know that this is the reason why you have this "House" now, so that not anyone can just walk in your life, and do as they please with your heart, body, mind, and soul. I know this "HOUSE" was built to protect you and keep out everybody because you are scared to trust again. I will come and pick up the pieces of your broken heart and put it back together. You are scared to believe that someone can actually come around and treat you like you are suppose to be treated. Treat you like you was designed and created to be treated. But believe me. I know its hard to see my sincerity and honesty because your sight has been blocked by the continues pain, hurt, and lies. Even if you turn me down today, I promise I will be back at your doorsteps tommorrow. I will come back everyday until...You let me in x3

Rain

Why I must suffer,

How long must I say on this route,

It is getting tougher,

I need to find the solution,

The answer,

But this problem is swelling inside of me,

like a cancer.

After contemplating,

Anticipatin,

Debating,

And waiting.

I realized that love was the source of my agony,

Why can't I find that right girl,

Is God mad with me?

I yern for her pressence,

Her essence,

nd her blessings.

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder,

Why can't she wake up and smell the foldgers,

And realize,

That even we are both goin through rain,

We will rise.

I have gone through the rain,

Been through the pain,

Can you be my gain?

Can you by ma New Edition,

The one on a cold night,

That im kissing,

This was my mission,

To make you Listen,

And realize that you're what I'm Missin <33

Crawl

How do we return back to the love of the same ones we hurt? How dare we turn around and ask for them to trust us, when we took their trust and threw it out the window. How can I ask you to hold my hand, as we return to the happiest moments in which we stood hand in hand, heart to heart? Sometimes in life we make the wrong decisions resulting in a split from us and our deepest desires. We stand at a crossroad as we try to figure out how can we "Crawl" back to the top. We stand at the crossroad, wondering if it is even possible for us to go back, to rewind and replay the moments that we desire, but seem so long ago. We ourselves, don't even how we are going to get things back like they use to be. We don't even know if its even possible. But all we need is that hand, and the trust from that person. All we want is the hand that has been bruised by our stupid decision, premature judgment, insecurities, and pride. All we want is the trust, that has been detiorated by our lies, and deceitful nature. Just give me your hand, and all my crooked paths would be made straight. Trust and believe that I am a new person. I am asking you to look past my unforgettable past. We can return back to love, if you just hold my hand. That's all I am asking for.. for you to hold my hand, and let me guide us back to love. I know trusting won't be easy, but just let it happen.... x3

Battlefield

Why sometimes in life just when we find that little light in a dark room, it seems to disappear? Why somtimes when we finally find that carton of milk for our cereal.. theres nothing in it? Sometimes after months of having no love in life, months of being hurt by partners who don't truly know the definition of a relationship, months of lies, we find a savior. We find someone who is willing to look past our imperfections, who is willing to come and turn our frown upside down, who is willing to shield us when we are most vulnerable. But we are scared.. we think that it is too good to be true, or that they might've made a mistake in choosing us, so we either put up a fight, or try to rush into things immediately. We don't want to take things at a calm rate, because we are scared of going back to that lonely person who would just sit on the train while a couple is right across from us cuddled up. We fear going back to that lil boy whos biggest fear was being all alone for the rest of life. We don't want to go back to being that lil girl who never experienced the satisfaction of a true signicant "other". We don't have to rush into things, or take a back seat because that person didn't make a mistake. He or she has found something in you that takes their breath away. They have found something in you, that makes you want to sing love songs on a rainy day. They look at you, and don't see the imperfections that you label yourself with, they don't see what everybody else see. They don't see something normal or average, but indeed unique.. Don't be afraid to take this risk, just let it happen... x3

Am I good enough?

Why do many girls have inner problems within themselves because a certain boy didn't tell them they are pretty? Why do they eat more food, so that there butt can look better and so more boys would look at them, like they look at their friends. Why do you cry yourself to sleep because you don't look like that girl on tv who was dancing all up in the Best I ever Had video. Why do you cry yourself to sleep just because it is taking longer for you to develop than your other friends. Why do you pop out your chest when that certain boy come around? Why do you starve yourself just because none of your friends are chubby, and they get all the attention in school? No matter how much a boy tell you look good or tell you he like the way you look, it still wont help you, unless you realize for yourself that you are gorgeous and that you were fearfully made in God image and likeness. That you are unique and special, and if no boy or girl can appreciate that then that is not your problem, but indeed theirs. It is not good to depend on someone to make you happy because when they leave how will you feel about yourself? You need to develop a love for yourself within. You must stop depending on boys to make you happy. You must stop depending on significant others in general, to make you happy. You must build up your character and realize that you are you and nobody can be like you and that is the BEST THING ABOUT YOU. And at the end of the day if a boy don't like you for who are, then thats his business, and that his problem. Don't ever alter yourself for anybody becaue their opinion doesn't matter. How will you altering yourself and making somebody like you, make you happy? They are falling for a false image, which is not really you. Ladies please stop depending on significant others to make you happy, because that is only momentarily happiness. It will go away when that person go away. I'm not saying I'm perect at this, but I am indeed trying...x3

Forgivness

This blog isnt about anybody in particular, just different thoughts in my head. Sometimes we hold on too many things. We choose to hold grudges and malice in our hearts for things that people have done to us. Sometimes we have legitimate reasons for holding these grudges, but other times it can be little things such as a meaningless arguement. I admit that no one is perfect and holding grudges is sometimes the most logically accurate thing to do when that bf cheated on you for the last time, when that best friend told your business for the last time, when your step father molested you for the last time, and/or when you was misused and abused for the last time. But holding grudges hold us back in life if we truly want to admit or not. When we cant forgive that girlfriend for sleeping with your bestfriend, you learn to adapt trust issues for everybody. You never trust another girl with your heart, or another person with a friendship. You start to mistreat girls because you was mistreated when all you wanted was true love. When all you wanted was companionship. You will never let another homeboi get too close to you because you think that at the snap of a finger he will violate you. I don't care what anybody say talkin about he dead to me, or she dead to me, its not true unless you forgive. Because if you continue to hold this person in your heart, they will continue to influence many of your decisions in life. Forgiviness doesn't mean being all smiley and up in that person face or even banging with that person again, it just means you are releasing them from all the anger that you hold against them. That is the only true time that you can honestly move on with your life is when you forgive. Forgive those who hurt you intentionally and unintentionally. Forgive that girlfriend in the past who has hurt you. Forgive that ex bff who had betrayed you. Move on..

Married young by *Leshauna*

Getting Married at a young Age

How many of you guys believe that the younger you get married shorter the
marriage will last?
This issue has come up with alot of young people I talk to. I think marriage is
marriage weather
or not it happens at young age.


i'm havinq hard time doinq this HELP!!!!

Happiness through the pain by ^Leticia^

Is it possible to love someone after being hurt?...
Hmm, I know a lot of people tend to feel like it’s the end of the world because the person they thought was “the one” really wasn’t and because they made that person their everything..once they are gone they feel like there is nothing left..also people tend to shut down after being heartbroken and say they will never love again..but there is a way to love somebody after being terribly hurt. I would know because ive been thru a situation like this one and I have loved after. Things people like me go thru are thinking that WE aren’t good enough for anyone to love us again, or what did WE do wrong or thinking we wont be able to trust anyone with our hearts ever again. In reality the person who was foolish enough to let us go aren’t good enough for us and because they hurt us they were never ever worth the enormous value we made them. Depending on how this person hurt you, u can make a choice to stay their friend or to let them go and never let them in ur life again. Honestly in my opinion someone you loved that much can NEVER be a friend. This is because the feelings are always there whether u left them or they left you or whatever the situation may be..you always need time to heal. Healing is the key to moving on with ur life. Ive made a lot of mistakes in the past but learned that letting go of that person that hurt u more than ever is the best way to try and move on with ur life and leave them behind. If u choose to be there friend it might be best to keep the friendship to a minimum and not be drawn back in to the things that u loved about them so much. [feelings may vary depending on the situation] Another way to try to love someone again is to actually find someone else. Some people tend to jus curl up and lock themselves up and keep to themselves but that wont get u anywhere. When u are thinking about someone else it gets your mind of the past. Trust becomes a big issue in these types of situations as well.

People like me need more than the words “you can trust me” especially after a bad experience. We need to be shown that its okay to trust someone with our heart again because not only is it fragile right now but it always will be because even if we forgive the person that hurt us we will never forget what it is that they did to us and when bad things happen to people its instinct to take precaution so that it doesn’t happen again or if it does happen it isn’t so bad and we are prepared. Trust will take time for ur new partner to gain but if they think u are worth and if they are worth it they will understand ur situation and stand by u until u are able to let them in. If the person just cant understand ur situation well that’s another person u don’t need in ur life. Theres a lot more other things I can say about this but overall don’t be afraid to love again, u will definitely regret it if u happen to let the right person pass u by. Yes you will be scared and yes it will be hard but u have to try and if u do find the right person it will definitely be worth it when you feel true happiness and the person that u once were hurt about doesn’t mean a thing anymore. The rush of the new beginning and life will feel great and anyone whos experienced this or is experiencing this deserves to feel that feeling…Everyone deserves there fairytale ending so go get yours!

Happy Birthday Michael! Love you with all my heart and soul! :D

Driving in Two lanes by ^Chantal^

Having feelins for someone who cannot seem to ever get out of your mind, the way he/she smiles, laugh, cry, speak, or even the lil things they do when they think noone is watching. Loving someone who makes you smile even when you have nothing to smile about. Question is could you love two people at the same time? Is it wrong to love to people with different emotional attachment and expectations. Well it is possible in my eyes. One feeling may be stronger than the other but its always the other person taht cnat seem to go away even thought it's not as srong, but the person is next in line for your heart. I think it's possible to be in love with someone but still have alot of love for someone else. What do you think?

Trying to fit a square into a circle

My friend Bianca onced told me"Never make somebody a priority. when to them you are just an option". Why do we alway try to make that one special person the center of our life? Why do we always put them on some pedestal, when we know good and well that they don't deserve to be there. They have hurt us time and time again, but we can't seem to shake them loose? Why do I continue to fight for something us, when I am the only one fighting? We try to make that special person to be that Mrs. Right or that Mr. Right, when we know that it will never happen. When we know that we are the only ones putting in the effort. We ignore best friends when they tell us to move on. We constantly check their statuses on aim/myspace/facebook just to see if they would mention our name so that we can tell everybody that he/she is changing, that everybody who was telling me to move on was wrong because they are changing. But... that never happen. We sometimes get more hurt when we check their status "aww i luv u 2 boo" "party was crazy got mad numbaz". The pain is like a cancer, it affects every aspect of our live. We can't focus at work, home, or at school. We don't try to talk to anybody else in that way, because we think that our "love" will come around and sweep us off of our feet. We cannot continue to "try to fit a square in a circle" we must move on... We must enter a new season, and find someone who is a perfect match.. x0x0<3

Love lifted me

I wanted to love you,

Wanted to believe what you was saying was true,
But I was just too scared.
Haunted by the past,
That always seemed to reappear,

Never did last.

I tried my best to run and hide, 
But I just couldn't get you off my mind.
Should I give love a second chance?
Or am I just wasting my time?

You promised you were different,
But so did the rest,
Then you looked into my eyes,
And I knew you had passed the test,

Held you close to me,

Because I was scared my heart would jump out my chest.

I grew hot when you held my hand,

Why is your heart beat my favorite jam?

I smile when you appear online on aim,

I am grateful that cupid has aim,

You helped me find my groove like Stella,

Just like Rihanna,

You promised me your umbrella,

I have no fear of heart break no longer,

You make me stronger.

Trying Close Doors

Baby I loved you with all my heart.

Wished we never grew apart.

Waiting two years for something to start….

When you where in the darkness, I was there to be your light…

I woud've never LEFt if you treated me RIGHt.

When you just needed someone to talk to I was your ears…

Now it’s been two years…

Left me like Jordan Sparks with no air.

And you never said yes…

I tried to win your heart,

But when I showed you mine…

You tore it apart…

You once told me you loved me… 

You once said you cared…

What happened to what we shared?

I let it slip through my fingers…

I just let love linger

No matter how hard I tried…

Our love just seemed to have died.

I cried

Searching for the man in the mirror

Many people always looking for that person that would treat them right. That knows how to have fun. That knows when to be a homie and a lover. We constantly are searching for someone that can love us, the way and how much we want. We are always looking over our shoulders for that perfect girl/boy who will sweep us off our feets with the smiles that we have been dreaming of, ever since their exes left them. We want that person who will cry with us when we cry, who will offer a shoulder to lean on when we cant support ourselves. We are looking for someone who wont up and leave us when the hard times comes. We want a lover who has built up a strong backbone due to all the mess that their exes has put them through. Who will never leave, who will stand their grounds when the going gets rough, and when the rough gets going. Who understands how hard true love is to find nowadays with everybody changing up, and with everybody caring about themselves. You want somebody who will smile at your imperfections and glorify your perfections. Somebody who can stand the rain, the pain, the fame, the lames, the misclaims, and the names. We often look for these people in this cruel world out there, but we look at ourselves and we realize that we are truly looking for the man in the mirror...x3 sigh

Sometimes love comes around & it knocks you down

Is there a time limit on how long it should take you to fall in love? Or when is too quick or not quick enough to say I love you baby. At times I feel that love cannot be felt in less than a month, but at other times I feel as if who can really put a limit or a capacity on what a person's heart cna feel, especially since we were all created in different ways. Many people dont always use the three words to express their feelings for a companion. Some say it because their partner said it, and they don't want their partner to feel bad. Others say it because they think that if they use those three words it is a way of holding your lover, and kind of stopping them from leaving you. Their lover is on the basis of leaving them, so they say those three words to force them stay for an extra couple of months. People also say it to show their lovers that they are very serious about the relationship, and that as much as they play around and hurt their feelings, they are "sincere". Love is thrown around nowadays too much, and is often used for the wrong reasons. Some girls and boys, hold on these words, and never say it because when they said it to their ex, thats when things started changing. At the point where they were most vulnerable, and open to their mate, that is when their lover hurt them and left them. When a mate says ILY in less than two months, I think there is something to question. In many relationships I said I love you, before the two months mark, and now as I grown older, I really doubt that I was in love. The reason I say that is because most my relationships never went past 3 months. How is that love? I was blind to the full meaning of love, but I am not the only one. Many boys and girls dont know the meaning, but friends are saying it, their parents are saying it, they see it on tv, and all around them. "Sometimes love comes around and knocks you down" -K.H. thank you Slim x3

Bench Player

Ha! yall thought this blog was going to be about sports but you already know how I do. This blog is about how long should you sit on the bench befoe you get back in the game. If you still don' understand what I am saying, I'll break it down. How long should you wait after a break up, to get back in the game and search for another companion? I think that for the average relationship, it should be about a month before you go out with anybody else. I say a month because you need time to think if you are truly over that person. Because I know personally that sometimes I tell people that I am over my ex, but just the simplest glimpse of her face can make the feelings come back. You need time to really know if your over that person, because you dont want to go in a relationship with a boy/girl when you still having feelings for another. Because you can't truly love one, if your still holding on to your past. Also, I hate when people go out with another person just so that they can get over their ex quicker. I don't like that, you are basically using the person, and 99.9% of the time you never tell your present bf/gf that you still have feeling for your ex. You are just trying to fill the missing space in your heart, that was created when that special person broke your heart. I also feel that if you was deeply in love with someone and then yall broke up, the waiting period should be 1+. Just because of the status of you guys's relationship. How can it take a month or less to get over a person that you truly deeply loved? Thats crazy, I use to think like that too, but like I said bloggin changed me. x3

Playing the fence

Many people look at cheating, as if there is something they are doing wrong. I feel that anybody who puts themselves down to justify another's action, is wrong. It is a problem conflicting inside of the cheater that is causing you to cheat. A couple of blogs ago I felt that sometimes there were reasons to cheat, but a good friend named Anna, helped me to realize that there is never a reason to cheat. If something is wrong with the person you are going out with, or seeing, just talk to them, and if that don't work out, just end it. You cheating just mean that you are selfish, and inconsiderate of one's feelings. I hate when girls cry themselves to sleep because a dude just cheat on them. They think that something is wrong with them, that they are ugly, that they were loving to hard, or not loving that much. The person who is cheating is the one with the problem, they don't truly understand the definition of love, and are too immature to handle a person like you. Boys also kick themselves when a girl cheat on them. They start to change up their swagg, and vow to never let anyone hurt them like their last love did. They promise to always hurt the person before they hurt them, and never get to deep. They to in turn cheat, because they are still trying to fill the pain that was caused from a previous relationship. It is a continous cycle. Never change up yourself because it is not within you where the problem lies, it is with the person who playes the fence. x3

Teen Pregnancy

I honestly don't agree with a teen getting pregnant at the state of being a teen. You have to much things to worry about to care for another. School, and hanging out with your friends, can't happen when you have a baby. What is the big thing about wearing a condom, girls and boys who don't use condoms while having sex, are just being ignorant. I don't even agree with sex at this stage, but that is not the topic of this blog. I blame boys more, because it is not that hard to slip on a condom, and plus you're not the one having the baby. You should care more and be more considerate, even if the girl is not thinking at the moment. Teen pregnancy is not alright,because you are stopping yourself from doing certain things. You are putting limits on yourself, and you won't be able to do certain things. You have to wake up in the middle to feed babies, your lady friend want to go out, but you stuck with the baby because your mother told you that the baby is your responsibility and not hers. You can honestly wait until you finish high school or college, just so that your life is more situated. But if you have it, and realize it is a mistake, don't have an abortion. I admit you wont be able to care for the baby, and that he/she was a mistake, but ending their life is really necessary? No, honestly its not. There are other options then killing an innocent baby, who was destined to be great. You can give them up for adoption, where another person who has the ability to care for them, will. Ending their life, for what, what is the difference betweene ending their life and giving them a chance to live through adoption, where they can experience and enjoy life. .. anyways that is for another day.. hit meh up with comments

Questionz Part III

1) If Obama was full black would he still be president?
2) How come the Jackson's family got custody of the kid, when it wasnt even his sperm?
3) Why is the rest of the Jackson family working regular jobs when their brother is the biggest icon?
4) How long will this recession last?
5) Why does black make you look skinnier?
6) Why don't Jews believe in Jesus, but they believe in God?
7) Why are GIRLS STILL FEENIN FOR CHRIS BROWN?
8) Why do LIl wayne get girls?
9) Why Drake tryna act gutta when his name is AUBREY?
10) Why is Brian always the spokesman for day 26?
11) Why do Mariah and Nick Cannon seem happy?
12) Why are gay girls seen as sexy, but gay boys as bffz?
13) Why do people think blondes are dumb?
14) Why Joe Jackson look so evil?
15) Jermaine Durpi and Janet Jackon making babies? OH NO
16) Who made hangers?
17) Why do your nipples get hard when your cold?
18) Why dont our toes have names?!?!?!
19) Why do we get our color back in the winter?
20) Why Diddy always sing on his artists' songs?
21) Why do Puerto Ricans and Indians run corner stores?

Fighting a DownHill Battle

What do you do when the person that you are interested in, dont want you? What do you do when that ex who broke up with you, can't leave your mind? How do you cope with the fact that your fighting for something that in their minds' will never happen. How do you g et past the heartbreak that has happen to the girl you like? How do you prove to the hard to get girls, that your not like a regular boy? Do you continue fighting? Do you continue pushing on? Or do you give up and move on? This topic came to me while listening to live your life by T.I and Rihanna. I honestly feel that if you got that gut feeling that you will suceed and get back to the top, by all means go head. Fight for love. Don't ever lose heart for what you believe in. The only thing that might hurt from this is constant rejection, heart breaks, and a low self esteem. You look back at this and see yourself as not good enough to make one happy. You feel as if you was a mistake, that nothing ever go right in your life. Don't ever let rejection from any member of the opposite sex dictate your happiness. We were all create for a special purpose, and our purpose was not to cry over people who don't want us. Just move on. If you feel as if you are fighting a losing battle, just move on. Nobody is special enought for you to let them cause you pain, and you just keep going. If this one don't realize what he has/had, then find another one who will. There are way prettier plants in the garden, it is just going to take a little time and effort, because nothing good is free. x3

When You Gone

One thing that annoys me in this world is when somebody is gone and people want to go hard for them, but when they was alive you was treating them with little or no respect. I don't understand the point of you going hard for them after they died, but when they was alive you treated them like trash. My family does exactly that. They will curse each other out even to the point of illness. But as soon as death strike, everybody want to start crying and acting like they cared so much. (I'm about to get personal), my mother and auntie had beef because of a real estate business in Florida. My auntie messed up my mom's credit, so my mother held a grudge against her for a year, even though she knew that my auntie was going through a series illness for over 3 years. She knew that my auntie was suffering from a illness that doctors weren't able to diagnose. It started to get worse and worse, and my mother anger for my auntie stayed the same. One Saturday, my mother got that phone call that my auntie has passed away. She stopped the car and started crying her heart out, talking about how she missed her sister. I was annoyed because like a minute ago you still had anger towards her. Also to all the fans of Michael Jackson, half of ya'll wasn't even feeling him like that. I know that he is human too and he died so ya'll showing ya'll respect, but some of ya'll was the same ones making fun of his voice, complexion, and his petefile accusations. This world is changing so greatly, and people are dropping by the number, so hatred and grudges are not important. Forgive that person that you stopped talking to because they didn't always have your best interest in heart at certain moments. Please forgive that person who turned their back at you, when you needed them the most. Forgive that boy who played you, when you loved him the most. Forgive that girl who hurt you when you was the most vulnerable. Please because life is too short. Love..