Crawl

How do we return back to the love of the same ones we hurt? How dare we turn around and ask for them to trust us, when we took their trust and threw it out the window. How can I ask you to hold my hand, as we return to the happiest moments in which we stood hand in hand, heart to heart? Sometimes in life we make the wrong decisions resulting in a split from us and our deepest desires. We stand at a crossroad as we try to figure out how can we "Crawl" back to the top. We stand at the crossroad, wondering if it is even possible for us to go back, to rewind and replay the moments that we desire, but seem so long ago. We ourselves, don't even how we are going to get things back like they use to be. We don't even know if its even possible. But all we need is that hand, and the trust from that person. All we want is the hand that has been bruised by our stupid decision, premature judgment, insecurities, and pride. All we want is the trust, that has been detiorated by our lies, and deceitful nature. Just give me your hand, and all my crooked paths would be made straight. Trust and believe that I am a new person. I am asking you to look past my unforgettable past. We can return back to love, if you just hold my hand. That's all I am asking for.. for you to hold my hand, and let me guide us back to love. I know trusting won't be easy, but just let it happen.... x3

Battlefield

Why sometimes in life just when we find that little light in a dark room, it seems to disappear? Why somtimes when we finally find that carton of milk for our cereal.. theres nothing in it? Sometimes after months of having no love in life, months of being hurt by partners who don't truly know the definition of a relationship, months of lies, we find a savior. We find someone who is willing to look past our imperfections, who is willing to come and turn our frown upside down, who is willing to shield us when we are most vulnerable. But we are scared.. we think that it is too good to be true, or that they might've made a mistake in choosing us, so we either put up a fight, or try to rush into things immediately. We don't want to take things at a calm rate, because we are scared of going back to that lonely person who would just sit on the train while a couple is right across from us cuddled up. We fear going back to that lil boy whos biggest fear was being all alone for the rest of life. We don't want to go back to being that lil girl who never experienced the satisfaction of a true signicant "other". We don't have to rush into things, or take a back seat because that person didn't make a mistake. He or she has found something in you that takes their breath away. They have found something in you, that makes you want to sing love songs on a rainy day. They look at you, and don't see the imperfections that you label yourself with, they don't see what everybody else see. They don't see something normal or average, but indeed unique.. Don't be afraid to take this risk, just let it happen... x3

Am I good enough?

Why do many girls have inner problems within themselves because a certain boy didn't tell them they are pretty? Why do they eat more food, so that there butt can look better and so more boys would look at them, like they look at their friends. Why do you cry yourself to sleep because you don't look like that girl on tv who was dancing all up in the Best I ever Had video. Why do you cry yourself to sleep just because it is taking longer for you to develop than your other friends. Why do you pop out your chest when that certain boy come around? Why do you starve yourself just because none of your friends are chubby, and they get all the attention in school? No matter how much a boy tell you look good or tell you he like the way you look, it still wont help you, unless you realize for yourself that you are gorgeous and that you were fearfully made in God image and likeness. That you are unique and special, and if no boy or girl can appreciate that then that is not your problem, but indeed theirs. It is not good to depend on someone to make you happy because when they leave how will you feel about yourself? You need to develop a love for yourself within. You must stop depending on boys to make you happy. You must stop depending on significant others in general, to make you happy. You must build up your character and realize that you are you and nobody can be like you and that is the BEST THING ABOUT YOU. And at the end of the day if a boy don't like you for who are, then thats his business, and that his problem. Don't ever alter yourself for anybody becaue their opinion doesn't matter. How will you altering yourself and making somebody like you, make you happy? They are falling for a false image, which is not really you. Ladies please stop depending on significant others to make you happy, because that is only momentarily happiness. It will go away when that person go away. I'm not saying I'm perect at this, but I am indeed trying...x3

Forgivness

This blog isnt about anybody in particular, just different thoughts in my head. Sometimes we hold on too many things. We choose to hold grudges and malice in our hearts for things that people have done to us. Sometimes we have legitimate reasons for holding these grudges, but other times it can be little things such as a meaningless arguement. I admit that no one is perfect and holding grudges is sometimes the most logically accurate thing to do when that bf cheated on you for the last time, when that best friend told your business for the last time, when your step father molested you for the last time, and/or when you was misused and abused for the last time. But holding grudges hold us back in life if we truly want to admit or not. When we cant forgive that girlfriend for sleeping with your bestfriend, you learn to adapt trust issues for everybody. You never trust another girl with your heart, or another person with a friendship. You start to mistreat girls because you was mistreated when all you wanted was true love. When all you wanted was companionship. You will never let another homeboi get too close to you because you think that at the snap of a finger he will violate you. I don't care what anybody say talkin about he dead to me, or she dead to me, its not true unless you forgive. Because if you continue to hold this person in your heart, they will continue to influence many of your decisions in life. Forgiviness doesn't mean being all smiley and up in that person face or even banging with that person again, it just means you are releasing them from all the anger that you hold against them. That is the only true time that you can honestly move on with your life is when you forgive. Forgive those who hurt you intentionally and unintentionally. Forgive that girlfriend in the past who has hurt you. Forgive that ex bff who had betrayed you. Move on..

Married young by *Leshauna*

Getting Married at a young Age

How many of you guys believe that the younger you get married shorter the
marriage will last?
This issue has come up with alot of young people I talk to. I think marriage is
marriage weather
or not it happens at young age.


i'm havinq hard time doinq this HELP!!!!

Happiness through the pain by ^Leticia^

Is it possible to love someone after being hurt?...
Hmm, I know a lot of people tend to feel like it’s the end of the world because the person they thought was “the one” really wasn’t and because they made that person their everything..once they are gone they feel like there is nothing left..also people tend to shut down after being heartbroken and say they will never love again..but there is a way to love somebody after being terribly hurt. I would know because ive been thru a situation like this one and I have loved after. Things people like me go thru are thinking that WE aren’t good enough for anyone to love us again, or what did WE do wrong or thinking we wont be able to trust anyone with our hearts ever again. In reality the person who was foolish enough to let us go aren’t good enough for us and because they hurt us they were never ever worth the enormous value we made them. Depending on how this person hurt you, u can make a choice to stay their friend or to let them go and never let them in ur life again. Honestly in my opinion someone you loved that much can NEVER be a friend. This is because the feelings are always there whether u left them or they left you or whatever the situation may be..you always need time to heal. Healing is the key to moving on with ur life. Ive made a lot of mistakes in the past but learned that letting go of that person that hurt u more than ever is the best way to try and move on with ur life and leave them behind. If u choose to be there friend it might be best to keep the friendship to a minimum and not be drawn back in to the things that u loved about them so much. [feelings may vary depending on the situation] Another way to try to love someone again is to actually find someone else. Some people tend to jus curl up and lock themselves up and keep to themselves but that wont get u anywhere. When u are thinking about someone else it gets your mind of the past. Trust becomes a big issue in these types of situations as well.

People like me need more than the words “you can trust me” especially after a bad experience. We need to be shown that its okay to trust someone with our heart again because not only is it fragile right now but it always will be because even if we forgive the person that hurt us we will never forget what it is that they did to us and when bad things happen to people its instinct to take precaution so that it doesn’t happen again or if it does happen it isn’t so bad and we are prepared. Trust will take time for ur new partner to gain but if they think u are worth and if they are worth it they will understand ur situation and stand by u until u are able to let them in. If the person just cant understand ur situation well that’s another person u don’t need in ur life. Theres a lot more other things I can say about this but overall don’t be afraid to love again, u will definitely regret it if u happen to let the right person pass u by. Yes you will be scared and yes it will be hard but u have to try and if u do find the right person it will definitely be worth it when you feel true happiness and the person that u once were hurt about doesn’t mean a thing anymore. The rush of the new beginning and life will feel great and anyone whos experienced this or is experiencing this deserves to feel that feeling…Everyone deserves there fairytale ending so go get yours!

Happy Birthday Michael! Love you with all my heart and soul! :D

Driving in Two lanes by ^Chantal^

Having feelins for someone who cannot seem to ever get out of your mind, the way he/she smiles, laugh, cry, speak, or even the lil things they do when they think noone is watching. Loving someone who makes you smile even when you have nothing to smile about. Question is could you love two people at the same time? Is it wrong to love to people with different emotional attachment and expectations. Well it is possible in my eyes. One feeling may be stronger than the other but its always the other person taht cnat seem to go away even thought it's not as srong, but the person is next in line for your heart. I think it's possible to be in love with someone but still have alot of love for someone else. What do you think?

Trying to fit a square into a circle

My friend Bianca onced told me"Never make somebody a priority. when to them you are just an option". Why do we alway try to make that one special person the center of our life? Why do we always put them on some pedestal, when we know good and well that they don't deserve to be there. They have hurt us time and time again, but we can't seem to shake them loose? Why do I continue to fight for something us, when I am the only one fighting? We try to make that special person to be that Mrs. Right or that Mr. Right, when we know that it will never happen. When we know that we are the only ones putting in the effort. We ignore best friends when they tell us to move on. We constantly check their statuses on aim/myspace/facebook just to see if they would mention our name so that we can tell everybody that he/she is changing, that everybody who was telling me to move on was wrong because they are changing. But... that never happen. We sometimes get more hurt when we check their status "aww i luv u 2 boo" "party was crazy got mad numbaz". The pain is like a cancer, it affects every aspect of our live. We can't focus at work, home, or at school. We don't try to talk to anybody else in that way, because we think that our "love" will come around and sweep us off of our feet. We cannot continue to "try to fit a square in a circle" we must move on... We must enter a new season, and find someone who is a perfect match.. x0x0<3

Love lifted me

I wanted to love you,

Wanted to believe what you was saying was true,
But I was just too scared.
Haunted by the past,
That always seemed to reappear,

Never did last.

I tried my best to run and hide, 
But I just couldn't get you off my mind.
Should I give love a second chance?
Or am I just wasting my time?

You promised you were different,
But so did the rest,
Then you looked into my eyes,
And I knew you had passed the test,

Held you close to me,

Because I was scared my heart would jump out my chest.

I grew hot when you held my hand,

Why is your heart beat my favorite jam?

I smile when you appear online on aim,

I am grateful that cupid has aim,

You helped me find my groove like Stella,

Just like Rihanna,

You promised me your umbrella,

I have no fear of heart break no longer,

You make me stronger.

Trying Close Doors

Baby I loved you with all my heart.

Wished we never grew apart.

Waiting two years for something to start….

When you where in the darkness, I was there to be your light…

I woud've never LEFt if you treated me RIGHt.

When you just needed someone to talk to I was your ears…

Now it’s been two years…

Left me like Jordan Sparks with no air.

And you never said yes…

I tried to win your heart,

But when I showed you mine…

You tore it apart…

You once told me you loved me… 

You once said you cared…

What happened to what we shared?

I let it slip through my fingers…

I just let love linger

No matter how hard I tried…

Our love just seemed to have died.

I cried

Searching for the man in the mirror

Many people always looking for that person that would treat them right. That knows how to have fun. That knows when to be a homie and a lover. We constantly are searching for someone that can love us, the way and how much we want. We are always looking over our shoulders for that perfect girl/boy who will sweep us off our feets with the smiles that we have been dreaming of, ever since their exes left them. We want that person who will cry with us when we cry, who will offer a shoulder to lean on when we cant support ourselves. We are looking for someone who wont up and leave us when the hard times comes. We want a lover who has built up a strong backbone due to all the mess that their exes has put them through. Who will never leave, who will stand their grounds when the going gets rough, and when the rough gets going. Who understands how hard true love is to find nowadays with everybody changing up, and with everybody caring about themselves. You want somebody who will smile at your imperfections and glorify your perfections. Somebody who can stand the rain, the pain, the fame, the lames, the misclaims, and the names. We often look for these people in this cruel world out there, but we look at ourselves and we realize that we are truly looking for the man in the mirror...x3 sigh

Sometimes love comes around & it knocks you down

Is there a time limit on how long it should take you to fall in love? Or when is too quick or not quick enough to say I love you baby. At times I feel that love cannot be felt in less than a month, but at other times I feel as if who can really put a limit or a capacity on what a person's heart cna feel, especially since we were all created in different ways. Many people dont always use the three words to express their feelings for a companion. Some say it because their partner said it, and they don't want their partner to feel bad. Others say it because they think that if they use those three words it is a way of holding your lover, and kind of stopping them from leaving you. Their lover is on the basis of leaving them, so they say those three words to force them stay for an extra couple of months. People also say it to show their lovers that they are very serious about the relationship, and that as much as they play around and hurt their feelings, they are "sincere". Love is thrown around nowadays too much, and is often used for the wrong reasons. Some girls and boys, hold on these words, and never say it because when they said it to their ex, thats when things started changing. At the point where they were most vulnerable, and open to their mate, that is when their lover hurt them and left them. When a mate says ILY in less than two months, I think there is something to question. In many relationships I said I love you, before the two months mark, and now as I grown older, I really doubt that I was in love. The reason I say that is because most my relationships never went past 3 months. How is that love? I was blind to the full meaning of love, but I am not the only one. Many boys and girls dont know the meaning, but friends are saying it, their parents are saying it, they see it on tv, and all around them. "Sometimes love comes around and knocks you down" -K.H. thank you Slim x3

Bench Player

Ha! yall thought this blog was going to be about sports but you already know how I do. This blog is about how long should you sit on the bench befoe you get back in the game. If you still don' understand what I am saying, I'll break it down. How long should you wait after a break up, to get back in the game and search for another companion? I think that for the average relationship, it should be about a month before you go out with anybody else. I say a month because you need time to think if you are truly over that person. Because I know personally that sometimes I tell people that I am over my ex, but just the simplest glimpse of her face can make the feelings come back. You need time to really know if your over that person, because you dont want to go in a relationship with a boy/girl when you still having feelings for another. Because you can't truly love one, if your still holding on to your past. Also, I hate when people go out with another person just so that they can get over their ex quicker. I don't like that, you are basically using the person, and 99.9% of the time you never tell your present bf/gf that you still have feeling for your ex. You are just trying to fill the missing space in your heart, that was created when that special person broke your heart. I also feel that if you was deeply in love with someone and then yall broke up, the waiting period should be 1+. Just because of the status of you guys's relationship. How can it take a month or less to get over a person that you truly deeply loved? Thats crazy, I use to think like that too, but like I said bloggin changed me. x3

Playing the fence

Many people look at cheating, as if there is something they are doing wrong. I feel that anybody who puts themselves down to justify another's action, is wrong. It is a problem conflicting inside of the cheater that is causing you to cheat. A couple of blogs ago I felt that sometimes there were reasons to cheat, but a good friend named Anna, helped me to realize that there is never a reason to cheat. If something is wrong with the person you are going out with, or seeing, just talk to them, and if that don't work out, just end it. You cheating just mean that you are selfish, and inconsiderate of one's feelings. I hate when girls cry themselves to sleep because a dude just cheat on them. They think that something is wrong with them, that they are ugly, that they were loving to hard, or not loving that much. The person who is cheating is the one with the problem, they don't truly understand the definition of love, and are too immature to handle a person like you. Boys also kick themselves when a girl cheat on them. They start to change up their swagg, and vow to never let anyone hurt them like their last love did. They promise to always hurt the person before they hurt them, and never get to deep. They to in turn cheat, because they are still trying to fill the pain that was caused from a previous relationship. It is a continous cycle. Never change up yourself because it is not within you where the problem lies, it is with the person who playes the fence. x3

Teen Pregnancy

I honestly don't agree with a teen getting pregnant at the state of being a teen. You have to much things to worry about to care for another. School, and hanging out with your friends, can't happen when you have a baby. What is the big thing about wearing a condom, girls and boys who don't use condoms while having sex, are just being ignorant. I don't even agree with sex at this stage, but that is not the topic of this blog. I blame boys more, because it is not that hard to slip on a condom, and plus you're not the one having the baby. You should care more and be more considerate, even if the girl is not thinking at the moment. Teen pregnancy is not alright,because you are stopping yourself from doing certain things. You are putting limits on yourself, and you won't be able to do certain things. You have to wake up in the middle to feed babies, your lady friend want to go out, but you stuck with the baby because your mother told you that the baby is your responsibility and not hers. You can honestly wait until you finish high school or college, just so that your life is more situated. But if you have it, and realize it is a mistake, don't have an abortion. I admit you wont be able to care for the baby, and that he/she was a mistake, but ending their life is really necessary? No, honestly its not. There are other options then killing an innocent baby, who was destined to be great. You can give them up for adoption, where another person who has the ability to care for them, will. Ending their life, for what, what is the difference betweene ending their life and giving them a chance to live through adoption, where they can experience and enjoy life. .. anyways that is for another day.. hit meh up with comments

Questionz Part III

1) If Obama was full black would he still be president?
2) How come the Jackson's family got custody of the kid, when it wasnt even his sperm?
3) Why is the rest of the Jackson family working regular jobs when their brother is the biggest icon?
4) How long will this recession last?
5) Why does black make you look skinnier?
6) Why don't Jews believe in Jesus, but they believe in God?
7) Why are GIRLS STILL FEENIN FOR CHRIS BROWN?
8) Why do LIl wayne get girls?
9) Why Drake tryna act gutta when his name is AUBREY?
10) Why is Brian always the spokesman for day 26?
11) Why do Mariah and Nick Cannon seem happy?
12) Why are gay girls seen as sexy, but gay boys as bffz?
13) Why do people think blondes are dumb?
14) Why Joe Jackson look so evil?
15) Jermaine Durpi and Janet Jackon making babies? OH NO
16) Who made hangers?
17) Why do your nipples get hard when your cold?
18) Why dont our toes have names?!?!?!
19) Why do we get our color back in the winter?
20) Why Diddy always sing on his artists' songs?
21) Why do Puerto Ricans and Indians run corner stores?

Fighting a DownHill Battle

What do you do when the person that you are interested in, dont want you? What do you do when that ex who broke up with you, can't leave your mind? How do you cope with the fact that your fighting for something that in their minds' will never happen. How do you g et past the heartbreak that has happen to the girl you like? How do you prove to the hard to get girls, that your not like a regular boy? Do you continue fighting? Do you continue pushing on? Or do you give up and move on? This topic came to me while listening to live your life by T.I and Rihanna. I honestly feel that if you got that gut feeling that you will suceed and get back to the top, by all means go head. Fight for love. Don't ever lose heart for what you believe in. The only thing that might hurt from this is constant rejection, heart breaks, and a low self esteem. You look back at this and see yourself as not good enough to make one happy. You feel as if you was a mistake, that nothing ever go right in your life. Don't ever let rejection from any member of the opposite sex dictate your happiness. We were all create for a special purpose, and our purpose was not to cry over people who don't want us. Just move on. If you feel as if you are fighting a losing battle, just move on. Nobody is special enought for you to let them cause you pain, and you just keep going. If this one don't realize what he has/had, then find another one who will. There are way prettier plants in the garden, it is just going to take a little time and effort, because nothing good is free. x3

When You Gone

One thing that annoys me in this world is when somebody is gone and people want to go hard for them, but when they was alive you was treating them with little or no respect. I don't understand the point of you going hard for them after they died, but when they was alive you treated them like trash. My family does exactly that. They will curse each other out even to the point of illness. But as soon as death strike, everybody want to start crying and acting like they cared so much. (I'm about to get personal), my mother and auntie had beef because of a real estate business in Florida. My auntie messed up my mom's credit, so my mother held a grudge against her for a year, even though she knew that my auntie was going through a series illness for over 3 years. She knew that my auntie was suffering from a illness that doctors weren't able to diagnose. It started to get worse and worse, and my mother anger for my auntie stayed the same. One Saturday, my mother got that phone call that my auntie has passed away. She stopped the car and started crying her heart out, talking about how she missed her sister. I was annoyed because like a minute ago you still had anger towards her. Also to all the fans of Michael Jackson, half of ya'll wasn't even feeling him like that. I know that he is human too and he died so ya'll showing ya'll respect, but some of ya'll was the same ones making fun of his voice, complexion, and his petefile accusations. This world is changing so greatly, and people are dropping by the number, so hatred and grudges are not important. Forgive that person that you stopped talking to because they didn't always have your best interest in heart at certain moments. Please forgive that person who turned their back at you, when you needed them the most. Forgive that boy who played you, when you loved him the most. Forgive that girl who hurt you when you was the most vulnerable. Please because life is too short. Love..

Loving a Mirror

Is it possible to be in love with a person who is exactly like you? I honestly don't think so. You will easily get frustrated and bored with them quickly. Two people who are in love cannot be the same. I am a proud believer in the term "Opposites attract." In many relationships that I have been in, I have never went out with the comedian girl, the girl that has a lot of boy friends, or that girl who is always hype like me. Opposites attract in this world, and create the best relationships. In life I always see that free spirit boy go for that moody girl that changes every minute. I think opposites attract because nobody truly wants a person just like themselves, but they want something new and unique. They want something that can balance them out. Who honestly believe that opposites don't attract? Who believes that two lovers who are just alike, will fall for each other? In the street you always see the softest girls with the hardest guys, the tallest boys with the shortest girls, and the free spirit girls with those soft dudes. This is not one of those deep blogs, just stating how I feel how this world is going. You need that person who can make you smile, when you are not use to smiling. You need that person who can tell you a joke when you are at the brink of commiting suicide. New things attract us, while same things bore us, because we already know what to expect. With new things, we only know one thing.. a rememorable experience.

My girl Gotta Girlfriend

Today my friend Antonya posed a great question to me. Is it ok to date a bisexual? In my book, I wouldn't feel truly comfortable, so I say no. I'm sorry for anybody's feeling that is being hurt but this how I feel. My personal answer is no, because dating a bisexual is against my morals. Also I am kind of jealous, so dealing with my girl looking at both boys and girls would feel very wierd. Many people see a bisexual girlfriend as a blessing because you get more options. But I dont see it like that. A girl that dates both girls and boys, is not my cup of tea. I would feel very awkward dating a girl that is bisexual, especially since most of my friends are girls. I would be scared bringing them around my friend. I would wonder if they think my bff is sexy or what. If they was a regular friend or a person on the street I wouldn't really have a problem because it is their choice. But when it comes to my love life, I have a problem. I know that bisexuals are humans, and many girls tell me that dating a bisexual girl is just like dating a regular girl. But when the table flips an a bisexual boy comes your way, how would you feel? Would you feel the same? Would you date him?

Is your past affecing your future or is it going to be your future"

This topic came from a great friend name Tati. Many times in life we suffer hurt from past lovers, and we just cant get over it. We can't let others love us because we are scared that if we give our all into the relationship, we may be hurt like we were a couple of months ago. We don't love the same way that we did a couple of months ago, because that way led us to be alone and depressed. We try to stay two steps ahead of our current lover so that we will never fall into the same trap twice. We don't want our past to be our future, so we never truly put our all into a relationship, because we know that pain can not happen effectively if we don't put our all into a relationship. This topic goes way past just love between ex and present lovers, it is way deeper. How about those girls who can't love a boy because they were taken advantage of by a father or step father. They were raped and molested, so now any guy that comes in their life, they fan off, because they don't trust men. They put themselves in a hole because they don't want to be open, because the last time they were open, some guy that they trusted to protect them, took advantage. They also don't trust women, because her mother never believed her, and let love get in the way of her trusting her daughter. Why does pain seem to resurface as soon as you find somebody who is willing to take away the pain? Why won't you let him in? I love this topic

Love beyond Limits

Niah (McDirty) posed a great topic for this blog "Is it ok to go after a bffs ex?" In my book, I honestly feel that it is ok to go after a best friend's ex based on the terms that they broke up. If they broke up over some petty stuff like lack of communication, it is ok. But if they broke up over a cheating situation, where the partner truly hurt the other partner, which led to anger or depression, you shouldn't pursue their ex. If the bestfriend is totally over the ex, and moved on, they shouldn't try to be selfish and jealous of you. I know many people is going to disagree with this blog today, but this is how I truly feel. Going out with a best friend's ex is nothing major especially since most of these relationships are not that serious, and it is not like you two were married. In many situations I have seen bestfriends tell their friends that it ok if they go out with their ex, because they over them, even though you are lying. As soon as they start going out jealousy and hidden anger starts to surface. It is ok to go out with a bestfriends' ex depending on the terms of the break up. No bestfriend should try to be selfish and hold on to their ex, and not expect somebody to go out with them because that it just not fair. You must also ask them for permission to go out with their ex, don't try do it behind their back, because that will mess up yall relationship. And no girlfriend or boyfriend is more important than a good friend. But if they say no, and you still want to pursue, well tell them that, because they are going to find out anyway. Thank You..

Between A rock and a hard place

What do you do when a your bestfriend is cheating on their girlfriend/boyfriend, who has become like a sister/brother to you? Who do you choose when one side is hurting another side secretly? Do you stay out of it or snitch, which may end in a broken relationship, and a broken bond between you and your bestfriend? Honestly I have been in the situation of a besfriend hurting a boyfriend, and I have just decided not to say anything. Am I wrong for not snitching? Also I have been on the other side to, where a girlfriend has hurt me, and her friend, who has become very close to me, has decided to stay out of it. Am I wrong for feeling angry at the friend? I feel like the biggest hyprocrite because I believe and support the statement that "once somebody is hurting your friend you stick up for them no matter what and cheating should always be snitched on." But does it come down to the fact of who you knew first? This blog is filled with alot of questions because I don't have any answers. This topic has been bothering me for a while not just because it is going on, but because I truly dont know the answer. Should I snitch? Or play my role as a bestfriend to the person I knew first, and keep it on the down low? Help

One side relationships

Have you ever gave so much for a person? Have you ever gave so much for a relationship? Have you ever put so much in a relationship not because your partner was doing the same, but you pushed it so that he/she would get the message. In many relationships only one partner is doing the work and the other is not fully into it. Many people jump into these things not knowing that relationships is a two way thing. You must equally give, as you must recieve. I talk to girls who give their all to boys who are cheating, or don't really care about them like. They constantly try to set up little dates, or little ways to hang out, but the boy bails everytime. I also talk to some boys who try everything to please their girl. They buy them gifts, stay happy so that they can be happy, or even slip in an extra I love you after every goodbye. But the boy doesn't get nothing in return, he doesn't get back the same effort. In some cases, it is just a sense of miscommunication. The partner who is not putting in much work, feels like they are doing everything right until the point when they are comfronted. In other cases, it is the definition of a true relationship that is confused between the boyfriend and girlfriend. Often only one side knows what truly goes into a relationship, while the other side doesn't truly know, or doesn't want to give so much into it. They are still scarred from their last relationship, where they put so much time and energy, then in the long run they ended up being heart broken. . PLEASE LEAVE COMMENTz. diz is a hard topic

Mind Games

Why do some girls love to play games? Why do they love to play with the mind of boys until they got them wrapped around their fingers? In my life I have met girls who gass up my head, and pull me in until I am feeling them the same way they are feeling me, and then at the last minute they pull out. Some of the girls that I know g ma head up to the point where I am feeling them on the same level or more, then they leave me on the curb by myself. I think boys play games but with girls it is way more sneaky. They play with us boys until they get what they want. I am not saying all girls are like this, but some are. I have ran into some girls who seemed like the dream girl, but as soon as I started liking them back, they changed up on me. Some girls have a way of doing and saying certain things knowing that it will cause a boy to feel a certain way, and they use that against us. Why can't yall just be upfront and say I am just in it for the game, or I don't really like you. Some girls do things that they know will send the message that they like you, but at the end of the day they say they just want to be friends. That don't make sense at all, why would you do what you do, or say what you say, if you don't feel me in that way. When boys act like this it gets me annoyed, but it hurts more with gurls, because they are suppose to be the mature ones and the ones that know the true definition and importance of love. smh.. its cool though because at the end of the day, you are just showing us that yall wasn't the right girl in the first place. NOT DIRECTED 2 ANYBODY.

The Power of the past

Do you think that it is ok or exes to go back out? Do you think that it is possible for exes to find love again? I am very iffy on this topic. I feel that exes, if possible, should go back out. I know that sometimes that the pain from you guys relationship can cause you to not want to go back out, because you remember those days that you was just fed up with him/her, and you wanted out. You remeber the days that you wished you never met them, you remember the dirty looks that they gave you. You remember the slick status that they put up, and try to g it like its not for you, but you secretly knew it was. But what do you you do when your heart is telling you that you want them back, despite the trials and tribulations. I think that you should follow your heart only if the pain that they caused is easily looked over. I don't think you should rely on your own opinion either, you need your true friends to tell you the truth. But if they did something taht was bad, but time had caused you to look over, well go after yours. After all "absence makes the heart grow fonder" i think thats the quote.lmbooooo. But anyway you should only enter the relationship again, if for sure you know that it wont just be another repreat, or another heart break or mistake. I honestly never went back out with an ex, just for the fact that I use to feel that once you done, you done, no double dipping. But now I'm older and now I think different. This blog is not necessarily about me, but what is going on in my world nowadays. To many people are scared to go back out, due to what ifs, if these what ifs got you wondering, than you should just forget about the lover and move on..

Suicide

For me it is hard to learn,
Inside of me is so dark that I am scared of sunshine,
I toss and turn,
I keep stressing my mind,
I rather peace than fame
I don’t know what to say, I look for peace but see I don't attain, I need an end to the game we play,
I am always lonely,
I can’t seem to shake my past, Madness to magnet keeps attracting me, And I try to run but see I'm not that fast,
I’m on the move can't seem to shake the shade,
Mind is at the edge as it creep, Within my dreams I see the life he made, The pain is deep,
I am as depressed as a widow,
Can’t eat nor sleep,
When it comes to my problems I am in the middle,
I need a way out from this nightmare,
I can’t think straight,
I have great fear,
I have no faith,
I know this is the end,
Goodbye my lovers,
And my friends.

My Sake

Girls fall in love, boys do to,
But when it’s all over, What is there to do,
Can’t forget bout it because the feeling remains,
Scared to trust another because it may happen again,
Can’t open up, Can’t be true,
What if the new one is just there to hurt you,
You can’t be stuck in the past,
But you can’t forget about the last,
That broke your heart,
That is the reason why this situation had a start,
I wished you wouldn’t have did that, for my sake,
Now the result is two heartbreaks,
Two hearts broken,
Emotions drowned in confusion,
Soaking,
Still didn’t tell you all they wanted to say,
Waiting for the right one, that can give you that Sweet Day,
Wishing they were there,
Love songs is all you can hear,
Yearning a mate,
For that special date,
Hope it’s not too late,
For my sake.

Questions part II

1) Why is it called hamburger, if you put beef in it?

2) Why do parents like to tell you to do things that they do theirselves?

3)Why do it feel like everybody is changing?

4)Why do girls feel like they know what love is better than boys?

5) Why is the prettiest girls always with the ugliest boys?

6) Why do people find it so hard to worship God?

7) Why do people consider Obama a black president?

8) Why when girls cheat, it is not called cheating?

9) Where do bird sleep?

10) Why do cats sound so nasty, when they having sex?

11) Why is life so stressful?

12) Why do boys like buttS?

13) Why do girls like them bad boys?

14) Are you taking avantage of a slut (excuse my language), when you sleep with her?

15) Why is masterbation ok?

16) Why don't girls propose to men?

Dark Spot

Have you ever had the dark spot that you cannot just cover in your life. It is not alway visible to your friends but you know its there. It holds you back from truly doing what you want to do, which may include loving yourself, loving others, or letting yourself be loved. This dark spot hurts, it causes pain that cannot be covered by the fake smiles that you put on when people ask how you doing. Or when you try laugh at a corney joke, trying to get your mind away from the pain. You try everything to get rid of this pain. You try let people have their way with you, you join certain groups, so that you feel accepted. You try drinking and smoking, so that when you high or drunk, you don't think about your problems. But when you finish, you realize that you feel way worser than before. You don't know what to do anymore. You cant go to your parents, because they are just going to judge you, and put you into a category. You can't even go to your closest friends, because they will look at you wierd. Even if they don't act wierd, its hard talking to them knowing that people keep changing up nowadays. Every minute they stop talking about you, and you hear from your enemies that your bestfriends are behind your back taking and laughing at you. You don't want to burden anybody with your problems, because your pride is burning inside of you. What to do to cover this dark spot. Nothing seems to work. The devil puts thoughts in your head that will cause to do things , but you know it will hurt you in the long run. I have felt this dark spot before but the solution is easy.. Trust God

Age

Do you honestly think that age is just a numbER? Do you think that lovecan be accomplished with a huge age difference taking place? I feel that age plays a huge role in love. Even though they say girls are more mature than guys, and that justifies why they date older guys. I think when you are still in your teens the biggest age difference should be 3 years. I say this because even though that boy or girl may be mature, there is still things that a 16 year old can understand about relationships, that can't sink into a 12 year old. Under 18, there is still much to learn about love, or just the whole topic of being in a relationship. Under 18, you kind of still expect one another to not get things fully, and just to go with the fly. I think once you past 25, age limits are off. There are little things for you to learn after you reach 25, but the big tips or the necessities should be learned already. It is quite fine for a 25 year old man to be going out with a 35 year old woman. Even though I said all I said already, I think it just sick when I see a 60 year old man with a 25 year old girl. That is nasty, and just selfish, on the man's part. I think some girls and boys just go out with people older than them, not because the are better lovers than the youngers, it just because of the age difference. With some it is just mindset that they have to go older, because these young ones don't know what they want.

Heart vs Mind

What do you do when you know you should't love her, but your hurt is still attached to her. Yall have been going out for like 2 years and she hurt you bad, you know you shouldn't go back to her, but your heart is telling you that things are better the second time around you. What are you suppoe to do when your boyfriend of 3 years, cheat on you, and then ask for you to take him back. The decision to choose between the heart and the mind is a hard one. You know what is right, bu sometimes that is not good enough for you. You want what feels good to you, and not necessarily what you think it is right. Your heart won't let your mind win, at the end of the day our hearts are way stronger then our minds. Love is a strong force that sometimes take over our whole body, and confuses our mind. It causes us to think right is wrong, and wrong is right. It causes us to do things that arent normal, but very wierd. I don't think that the mind is stronger than the heart. That is why sometimes we usually accpet the apologies from the people that hurt us the most. That is why we tend to go out back out with the same ones that didn't take our feelings into account when they cheated on us, or tried to embarass us to their friends to help their reputation. My heart is way stronger than my mind. I deleted girls at least 10 times, but it only last for like 3 days. I then add them back to see if their status is about me, or to see if they ok. I look at their screenname and picture us having a conversation about our feelings. Then I actually hit them up and realize that I broke the chain, but love rules over everything (L.O.E)

Long Distance

I honestly feel that a long distance relationship cannot work. How can a relationship work when the only thing you got is a voice, but nothing physical. I don't understand how a relationship can work when the two lovers don't see each other, but only talk on the phone, or on the computer. I know for sure that I wouldn't be able to do it because I am the type to get bored easily, even when my significant other is in the same city, so how would I deal with a long distance relationship. In a way, I would feel as if I'm holding her from exploring options that can do more for her than I can, due to my location. I don't believe that a relationship is very strong without phsyical contact, or at least your significant lover being close to you at all times. Some say that a long distance relationship can work, but I feel that if it do work, it will be weak, and the slightest thing that comes along can break the relationship. I don't think that no longer distant couple can say that at times they feel no sense of jealousy or sometimes wonder what your other half is actually doing. I feel that you guys are just holding each other back from finding love that will satisfy all their needs. I know for a fact that no long distant lover is happy at all times, they suffer from depression and anger for not being with their lovers. I know that sometimes your word is good, because the sweetest thing you say can make him/her blush, but sometimes you need to feel the firm arms of your boyfriend, or the gentle face of your girlfriend. You need that special warmth that only comes from that person that you truly are attracted to. You need that chemistry that can only be experienced on one-ones that you share in person. I don't think long-distance relationships work, sorry, what do you think?

Locked up

Locked up they won't let me out,
I don't even know what it's all about,
Leave me in here,
Without giving me a care,
Not even asking if I'm okay,
Just pass by my cell every single day,
This can't go on no longer,
Their arms, feet, and hands are stronger,
My faith is running dry,
Sometimes I want to cry,
But I look deep in my heart,
And realize from the start,
That I am a man,

With a light skin tan,

Why am i caged up by what you think,
By what you care,

By what I wear,

By what I give,

By what I deal,

Or how I feel,

For some reason I stay cheesin,

It is a new day,

it is a new season,
I am locked up,
But they will let me out.
~Michael George Haynes

Lover never fails

I honestly feel that once your in love with somebody, a piece of your heart will always belong to them. I don't think it is possible to be strongly in love with somebody, then after a couple of months after yall break up, you say that you feel nothing towards that person. I know that sometimes a period of hurt that a significant other cause, can cause you to be blind to the feelings or attractiveness that you two share. I strongly believe that love doesn't go away, especially when your deep in love. I still share a little bit of atrractiveness to all my exez, and I don't know if it will ever go away. Love is just one of those things that will never go away, I dont care how bad you was hurt or played. Love never fails, and it will never leave. I am not saying that you will be in love with a certain boyfriend/girlfriend for your whole life, but you guys will share some type of liking towards each other. I don't think no future lover should get mad about their lover having some type of feeling towards their ex because love is a strong thing. Also you must truly know what love is, and the only way you can know what love is, is if you experience it for yourself... Love takes it course..

Love in your face

Why do we sometimes look in all the wrong places for love, when we have love in our eyes. Why do we feen for a boy or girl that has a couple of rough edges when there is a boy/girl who is perfect for us. Why do we cry when we suffer from break ups to the same one who has been waiting for us to give them a chance but we can't see it. Why do we go for the boys that are the gangsters or the cheaters/players even though that is not our dream guy, and look over the sweetheart that is sitting at home waiting for you to choose him. Why do we choose those fast pretty girls that aren't necessarily our types, over that bff girl that we complain to, but secretly they desire us. Whe look for love in all the wrong places, and never just let love happen. We sometimes are in such a hurry for love to take its course that we will look over the most obvious answers for the complicated ones, not because the obvious ones are of less value, but it is because we tend to shift our focus in the search of love. I have been looked over for those boys who aren't the right ones, but I let it rock, because rejection is a powerful thing. I knew I was the right guy for her, and that she wouldn't be happy if she wasn't with me. I know how it feels to be looked over for a second place loser. I always just wanted to come out and say I am the right guy, he don't deserve you. Why do we sometimes take the bad boys in attempt to change them, instead of choose a boy that is already a good guy. Is easy boring?. Why do we sometimes take the bad girls in an attempt to look cool in front of our dudes and squads. Which is more important love or acceptance? PLEASE LADIEZ ND GENTZ. DONT OVERLOOK THE ONES THATS IN YOUR FACE.(shoutz 2 ayanna)

My Mom

In the past year my mom has been super hard on me than usual (which is 0Dee hard). She have been calling out all my faults and overexamining my imperfections. She has stopped talking to me for over two days each week, and she has been arguing with me constantly. I hate being home because I know that once I am home, my happiness is altered. She don't appreciate the good things I do but critizing the bad things I do. This morning she came up to me and asked me why I don't like her and I answered everything I do, you find a problem with. I told her that she is constantly on my back, and never giving me enough credit. She didn't answer me but I went downstairs and heard somebody crying. I found out that it was my mom, so I asked her why she was crying, she said "Mikey it is not like I don't like you, but I am just trying to make sure you go on the right path unlike your sister." My sister Andrea, was at the top of her class in South shore. Her teacher said that she dind't have to study for a test, it was in the last semester of 12th grade that she decided to hang around the wrong people. When she started hanging around the wrong people, she started cutting school, and eventually dropped out and had my nephew Andre. My mother was hurt and now she is on my back because she don't want that to happen to me. She blames herself for my sister dropping out, and she don't want me to be another failure. She want me to be thr first one in the family to go college and become something. I honestly felt like crying when I heard this, but somewhere deep inside of my heart I still feel that I should be given a littler more space. I look at the things she do more closely and differently that I looked at them earlier. I feel bad for hurtin her with my attitude, but I still feel that she should change her ways.

2000!

I came on my computer this afternoon and found out that I reached the 2000 mark and surpassed it. I am most grateful for people actually taking the time out to read my blog and also comment it. I want to acknowledge a couple of people for reading and sharing my blog with their friends and family.. Raymond, Leticia, Bri, Xavier, Chantal, Malcolm, Anna, Chanel, Coreece and Nahsiah. Sorry if I'm forgetting you right now, but this is kind of a freestyle. I solemnly promise to continue to uphold the truth and what I think is right or wrong. I apologize for anybody's feelings that have been hurt ever since I have started blogging, but hey..I got to keep it real. If any of you guys have any ideas of new blogs, please feel free to hit me up on the aim swagg.. sh0tta sto0kz810. Continue to spread the word about the blog, dont be selfish. Thank you guys! I appreciate your help in helping me become a better person. ND CONTINUE TO SPREAD THE WORD! ND CONTINUE TO SPREAD THE WORD!!!!!!

Boo vs. Husband

I was talking to a friend the other day (Onesa), and she was telling me that a boyfriend and a husband holds the same weight. She told me that a husband is nothing more than a husband. She say that boyfriends and husband are the same, due to the fact that the divorce rate is way too high right now, which means that the level of seriousness is the same. I told her that a boyfriend is less secure than a boyfriend. A husband made the transition from a boyfriend to a husband because he felt in his mind and heart that he found the right one. He took a vow to be there for that significant other through everything and that he will never leave her side. Even though some husbands take these vows for granted and walk out of a wife life just as a boyfriend do, a husband understands and acccepts his values at a higher level. Too many people are getting married for the wrong reasons, and also too many of them are jumping into marriage to quickly. Marriage is a serious step taken by two people who are very secure with their relationships, and want to be recognized as one, instead of just a boyfriend and a girlfriend. They want to tackle this world as one, realizing that trials and tribulations will come but they will stand strong as a tree with deep roots.. I don't think a boyfriend can compare to a husband.. Do you think it is the same?

Girlfriend

For me it is hard to specify what I actually want my girlfriend to be, but I have a general idea of what I want in a girlfriend. First and foremost I want a girlfriend who has some type of relationship with God. I don't think my girlfriend can truly love me or understand me if they don't love God. I don't want a girl that is too loud, but not one that too quiet. I want one that is down to earth, that I can tell her my deepest secrets, and know that she won't judge me. I don't want a tom boy girlfriend, but I don't want a girlfriend who is too stuck up or caught up in her beauty that it is starting to get to her head. I want a girl that can make me laugh, when I don't necesarily want to, and that keep positive energy aruoud me. I want a girl that is book smart, and that got a good head on her shoulders, and that don't carry alot of baggage. I want a girl that got imperfections. I know it sounds wierd but a girl with imperfections balances out my imperfections, and shows me that we both got thinks that we can work on. I want a girl that has a lil jealousy, but not too much where it is provoked into the shape of honor. A girl that can trust me because I have alot of girl friends, because I don't like being around boys. My girlfriend has to first be my friend, has to first be my shoulder to lean on,and the one to make me smile.. do you fit that?

Trusting a partner

Alot of times when a significant other hurts their partner or breaks up with them, they are shattered, they beome depressed, and don't know what to do with themselves. I view trust as a mountain. The more trust you instill in a person, the higher you go up this mountain. Being higher up the mountain, or putting more trust in a person doesn't mean that your secure in your life, or that they wont break your trust. It just means your higher up, and have more trust in somebody. And when your higher up, that makes it easier to fall, and when you have more trust in a person. it makes it harder to forgive and recover from the hurt. So when a person breaks your trust, it hurts so bad, because you are so high up on this mountain. It is a long drop and it hurts. In life, I learned to never trust somebody fully, but I should hold a piece of myself back. Trusting a girlfriend/boyfriend is so easy when you never fell before, but when you have suffered heart breaks it is hard trying to get back to the top of the mountain because you know what will happen if you get too high. Often in relationships partners put alot of trust in each other not because they deserve it, but it is because where they want them to be. They put trust in them because they don't want to believe that this person can hurt them even though all the odds are against them. Putting trust in somebody hurts, but holding back yourself from trusting somebody also hurts. It causes pain to know that yu are scared to trust somebody just because a past boyfriend has hurt you so bad that you are scared. Everytime he/she tells you that they are just hanging out with their opposite sex friends, you become scared because you know that your last lover cheated on you with your own friend. Trust is a severe thing, but falling is even more severe..

tEEN sEX

Why is there so much pressure to have sex as teen. Why do you have to have sex in order to be seen as popping or cool. I don't understand why people feel inferior if you are a virgin. If anything you are more superior because you chose not to be just another statistic in teen pressure. You chose to stand of what you believe in and be different from everybody else who is attempting to judge you. I think sex is a bond that should be shared with someone you truly love and that you can't live without, which is a marriage partner. I don't think teenagers saying that boyfriends/girlfriends fit that role because lil boys and lil girls are constantly changing, and they don't know what they truly want. I also feel that as teenagers, you don't know the true definition of love, or the significance of sex. For teenagers it is seen as a way to look right to your friends. I truly don't care what people say because I am very secure with who I am. If the person truly loves you, they can wait until marriage.

Cheating

This blog is going to require comments so I can get a better sense of where you are at. Do you think that when a boyfriend/girlfriend cheats that they should be forgiven. I have to say it depends on how long you guys been going out. If its 3 months and under I think its bad but not too bad to cheat. But once it gets past the 3 months mark you should be secure enough in your relationship that you don't want nothing else but your lover and what they have to offer. I also think it depends on how the lover is treating you. If the lover is constantly nagging you, always accusing you of doing something, and never understand where your coming from, they should expect that your unhappiness will either lead you to cheat or to break up with them. But if you don't break up with them, they should sense that something is terribly wrong. I have another question.. why when a boy cheats, its a huge thing, but when a girl cheats they expect you to forgive them because it was a small thing. I do not think thats fair especially since the boy tends to forgive them, but the girl tends to not forgive the boy as often. It is very wrong to punish cheating with cheating, because thats just dumb. If both of you guys are cheating then yall should just end it, because obviously it is not working. This quote is for those boyfriends number 2 and those girlfriends number 2 "if your not good enough for them to leave their lover for, then your not really that good" and "if they can cheat on their lover for you, imagine what they are doing to you". Please leave comments on this blog..

Close friendz

Nowadays its mad hard to find a friend that is really down for you, and that will stand with you through thick and thin. It is especially hard to find a friend that will stand with me because I am a confused boy, who changes up alot. It is not because I choose to change up my swagg it is because I don't know where my life is going. So this blog is shouting out my close friends, and the people I appreciate...

Leticia - For understanding me through everything, and telling me the truth when I didn't really want to hear it. For being there for me, when I wasn't really there for myself. For giving me the chance to over you my shoulder to cry on, when you had your gloomy moment.

Bri - For helping me become a better Christian, making me smile, and helping me to realize that I should take things one day at a time. For me finding a person that was very similar to me, and that I can trust with anything.

Joanne - For being the laidback person you are. For smiling and laughing at my jokes, and being the unique person you are.. LOVE YOU

Bianca - For giving me the oppurtunity to vent to you. For you being so down to earth and willing to listen to me, when you necessarily didnt want to. For being the sweet and loving person you are.

Chantal - For giving me the chance to listen and help you during certain times. For understanding things that happen, and for being so cool. Thank you for being a shoulder to lean on and a friend to keep.

Bush - For giving me great laughs and for listening for my girl troubles.lol

Juh juh - For laughing at me when it was uncalled for, teaching me that there is always a positive side to things.

Bobby G - For letting me see that I am not the only one that go through certain things (did you think bout it.lol) and for being a lil bro to me.

RaH- For helping me realize that I am not the only one with problems, and that sometimes others are worsee than mines. We recently became mad tight and I want it to stay that way.

Nicole - For being a lil sister, and helping me realize that life is too good to be taken serious.

Shanise- For showing me the bright side to things. For showing me that I can make it through anyting. LOVE YOU

Prisca - For helping me when I had my problems and for always being on my side.lol

"PEOPLE LIKE 2 GET ROSES WHILE DE CAN STILL SMELL EM" love you guys

Options

Why is love so confusing, especially when your trying to find it. Why is it that when you have a girlfriend, a lot of girls be coming at you. But the minute you become single there is nobody, and it seems like nobody like you no more. In my life whenever I find a girl that I truly like, another come and causes me to re-evaluate my liking of the first girl. Once I decided to done my relationship with a girl and to pursue a relationship with another girl that really liked me. But when I decided to focus on the next girl, she started to stop liking me. I think girls like it when boys are married, and in som wierd way it makes them more attractive. I know for me especially girls are more attractive to me when they are in a relationship, and when they are single they sometimes are less attractive. I think it is because you know tat you have limitations when somebody is married. It is like when your parents tell you not to touch the fire because it will burn you, and they try to keep you away, then you are amazed by the fire and want to touch it. But it they told you to touch it, and nothing was stopping you, you wouldn't want to touch it as bad. I think that girlfriends looking more attractive to me is bad, and makes me look like a homewrecker, but I never took a girl from somebody. It is a bad quality.. but I keep it 100 with my blog.

Friends vs. Boo

Honestly.. I don't know who I would choose if it came down to a friend vs a boo. I think I have to look outside of the titles of boo and friend, and examine them both as persons. I have to see who is a better person in general, and who has more faults than the other. I have to examine who is more truthful and who has my best interest at heart. I never understood why girls sometimes avoid the advice that friends from over 10 years give them, and listen to a boy who they knew for less than a month. It is wierd when a friend change up on you when they get a little love in your life, and when their heart get broken, they come back running to you for help. Some people say that they would trust a boo over a friend due to jealousy and envy from that friend. But if they are envious and jealous towards you, they are not truly your friend. If a bestfriend that I knew told me that he saw my girlfriend of a month, kissing another boy, I would leave that girl in a heartbeat, with no explanation. The reason is because friends come before a girlfriend, especially when it is so early in the relationship. If it was later on in the relationship, like five months down the line, I would probably have a hard time choosin sides... What would you do?

Go hard

Today TFC (Teens For Christ) performed for the inauguration of the Rhode Island church. We rapped and showed people what we can do. After performing, I realized that I have no reason not to go hard for Christ. He is my refuge, my strength, and my strong tower. He has been there when everyone else has forsaken me. Nobody else on this earth can do or has done anything close to what he has done for me. I have caught myself slacking, and took a reality check, and realized that I sometimes make people more important to me than my relationship with God. I sometimes compromise boundaries in being a Christian and being a person out there in the world. I have realized that I have been half stepping, and have let people influenced me to the point, where I know I am changing. I am no longer ashamed of my relationship with God. He means more to me than life itself. Life is too short for me to be taking my relationship with God for granted. Here I am...