Commitment

In a couple of my relationships I feel as if I didnt really like my girlfriend the way they liked me, but they liked me first, so I went out with them. I sometimes filled their ear with not necessarily what I felt, but what I know would make them happy, or make them feel better about our relationship, or just themselves. In other relationships Im usually the one who was pushing for us to go out mad hard. I would try break down that wall that kept her from not saying yes, then we would start going out for a little bit, and I would end it quick. I look at that and be like what was the sense of pushing for her to say yes, if I was just going to end it in less than two months. I am not scared of the word commitment, but I realized that when it comes to actually doing it, it is hard. I get very bored in relationships, and it is not necessarily that there is another girl out there that I am interested in, it is just that I don't understand the point of staying in a relationship. Staying with a girl for over four months seems so real to me, when I say it to myself. But when it comes to me making it past the first set of months, I feel uncomfortable. Then after a month of being single, I realize how much I love the company of a girl, and the warmth of having girlfriend. When I look at my self I wonder what am I going to do when I get married? Only time will tell..