Love lifted me

I wanted to love you,

Wanted to believe what you was saying was true,
But I was just too scared.
Haunted by the past,
That always seemed to reappear,

Never did last.

I tried my best to run and hide, 
But I just couldn't get you off my mind.
Should I give love a second chance?
Or am I just wasting my time?

You promised you were different,
But so did the rest,
Then you looked into my eyes,
And I knew you had passed the test,

Held you close to me,

Because I was scared my heart would jump out my chest.

I grew hot when you held my hand,

Why is your heart beat my favorite jam?

I smile when you appear online on aim,

I am grateful that cupid has aim,

You helped me find my groove like Stella,

Just like Rihanna,

You promised me your umbrella,

I have no fear of heart break no longer,

You make me stronger.

Trying Close Doors

Baby I loved you with all my heart.

Wished we never grew apart.

Waiting two years for something to start….

When you where in the darkness, I was there to be your light…

I woud've never LEFt if you treated me RIGHt.

When you just needed someone to talk to I was your ears…

Now it’s been two years…

Left me like Jordan Sparks with no air.

And you never said yes…

I tried to win your heart,

But when I showed you mine…

You tore it apart…

You once told me you loved me… 

You once said you cared…

What happened to what we shared?

I let it slip through my fingers…

I just let love linger

No matter how hard I tried…

Our love just seemed to have died.

I cried

Searching for the man in the mirror

Many people always looking for that person that would treat them right. That knows how to have fun. That knows when to be a homie and a lover. We constantly are searching for someone that can love us, the way and how much we want. We are always looking over our shoulders for that perfect girl/boy who will sweep us off our feets with the smiles that we have been dreaming of, ever since their exes left them. We want that person who will cry with us when we cry, who will offer a shoulder to lean on when we cant support ourselves. We are looking for someone who wont up and leave us when the hard times comes. We want a lover who has built up a strong backbone due to all the mess that their exes has put them through. Who will never leave, who will stand their grounds when the going gets rough, and when the rough gets going. Who understands how hard true love is to find nowadays with everybody changing up, and with everybody caring about themselves. You want somebody who will smile at your imperfections and glorify your perfections. Somebody who can stand the rain, the pain, the fame, the lames, the misclaims, and the names. We often look for these people in this cruel world out there, but we look at ourselves and we realize that we are truly looking for the man in the mirror...x3 sigh

Sometimes love comes around & it knocks you down

Is there a time limit on how long it should take you to fall in love? Or when is too quick or not quick enough to say I love you baby. At times I feel that love cannot be felt in less than a month, but at other times I feel as if who can really put a limit or a capacity on what a person's heart cna feel, especially since we were all created in different ways. Many people dont always use the three words to express their feelings for a companion. Some say it because their partner said it, and they don't want their partner to feel bad. Others say it because they think that if they use those three words it is a way of holding your lover, and kind of stopping them from leaving you. Their lover is on the basis of leaving them, so they say those three words to force them stay for an extra couple of months. People also say it to show their lovers that they are very serious about the relationship, and that as much as they play around and hurt their feelings, they are "sincere". Love is thrown around nowadays too much, and is often used for the wrong reasons. Some girls and boys, hold on these words, and never say it because when they said it to their ex, thats when things started changing. At the point where they were most vulnerable, and open to their mate, that is when their lover hurt them and left them. When a mate says ILY in less than two months, I think there is something to question. In many relationships I said I love you, before the two months mark, and now as I grown older, I really doubt that I was in love. The reason I say that is because most my relationships never went past 3 months. How is that love? I was blind to the full meaning of love, but I am not the only one. Many boys and girls dont know the meaning, but friends are saying it, their parents are saying it, they see it on tv, and all around them. "Sometimes love comes around and knocks you down" -K.H. thank you Slim x3

Bench Player

Ha! yall thought this blog was going to be about sports but you already know how I do. This blog is about how long should you sit on the bench befoe you get back in the game. If you still don' understand what I am saying, I'll break it down. How long should you wait after a break up, to get back in the game and search for another companion? I think that for the average relationship, it should be about a month before you go out with anybody else. I say a month because you need time to think if you are truly over that person. Because I know personally that sometimes I tell people that I am over my ex, but just the simplest glimpse of her face can make the feelings come back. You need time to really know if your over that person, because you dont want to go in a relationship with a boy/girl when you still having feelings for another. Because you can't truly love one, if your still holding on to your past. Also, I hate when people go out with another person just so that they can get over their ex quicker. I don't like that, you are basically using the person, and 99.9% of the time you never tell your present bf/gf that you still have feeling for your ex. You are just trying to fill the missing space in your heart, that was created when that special person broke your heart. I also feel that if you was deeply in love with someone and then yall broke up, the waiting period should be 1+. Just because of the status of you guys's relationship. How can it take a month or less to get over a person that you truly deeply loved? Thats crazy, I use to think like that too, but like I said bloggin changed me. x3

Playing the fence

Many people look at cheating, as if there is something they are doing wrong. I feel that anybody who puts themselves down to justify another's action, is wrong. It is a problem conflicting inside of the cheater that is causing you to cheat. A couple of blogs ago I felt that sometimes there were reasons to cheat, but a good friend named Anna, helped me to realize that there is never a reason to cheat. If something is wrong with the person you are going out with, or seeing, just talk to them, and if that don't work out, just end it. You cheating just mean that you are selfish, and inconsiderate of one's feelings. I hate when girls cry themselves to sleep because a dude just cheat on them. They think that something is wrong with them, that they are ugly, that they were loving to hard, or not loving that much. The person who is cheating is the one with the problem, they don't truly understand the definition of love, and are too immature to handle a person like you. Boys also kick themselves when a girl cheat on them. They start to change up their swagg, and vow to never let anyone hurt them like their last love did. They promise to always hurt the person before they hurt them, and never get to deep. They to in turn cheat, because they are still trying to fill the pain that was caused from a previous relationship. It is a continous cycle. Never change up yourself because it is not within you where the problem lies, it is with the person who playes the fence. x3

Teen Pregnancy

I honestly don't agree with a teen getting pregnant at the state of being a teen. You have to much things to worry about to care for another. School, and hanging out with your friends, can't happen when you have a baby. What is the big thing about wearing a condom, girls and boys who don't use condoms while having sex, are just being ignorant. I don't even agree with sex at this stage, but that is not the topic of this blog. I blame boys more, because it is not that hard to slip on a condom, and plus you're not the one having the baby. You should care more and be more considerate, even if the girl is not thinking at the moment. Teen pregnancy is not alright,because you are stopping yourself from doing certain things. You are putting limits on yourself, and you won't be able to do certain things. You have to wake up in the middle to feed babies, your lady friend want to go out, but you stuck with the baby because your mother told you that the baby is your responsibility and not hers. You can honestly wait until you finish high school or college, just so that your life is more situated. But if you have it, and realize it is a mistake, don't have an abortion. I admit you wont be able to care for the baby, and that he/she was a mistake, but ending their life is really necessary? No, honestly its not. There are other options then killing an innocent baby, who was destined to be great. You can give them up for adoption, where another person who has the ability to care for them, will. Ending their life, for what, what is the difference betweene ending their life and giving them a chance to live through adoption, where they can experience and enjoy life. .. anyways that is for another day.. hit meh up with comments

Questionz Part III

1) If Obama was full black would he still be president?
2) How come the Jackson's family got custody of the kid, when it wasnt even his sperm?
3) Why is the rest of the Jackson family working regular jobs when their brother is the biggest icon?
4) How long will this recession last?
5) Why does black make you look skinnier?
6) Why don't Jews believe in Jesus, but they believe in God?
7) Why are GIRLS STILL FEENIN FOR CHRIS BROWN?
8) Why do LIl wayne get girls?
9) Why Drake tryna act gutta when his name is AUBREY?
10) Why is Brian always the spokesman for day 26?
11) Why do Mariah and Nick Cannon seem happy?
12) Why are gay girls seen as sexy, but gay boys as bffz?
13) Why do people think blondes are dumb?
14) Why Joe Jackson look so evil?
15) Jermaine Durpi and Janet Jackon making babies? OH NO
16) Who made hangers?
17) Why do your nipples get hard when your cold?
18) Why dont our toes have names?!?!?!
19) Why do we get our color back in the winter?
20) Why Diddy always sing on his artists' songs?
21) Why do Puerto Ricans and Indians run corner stores?

Fighting a DownHill Battle

What do you do when the person that you are interested in, dont want you? What do you do when that ex who broke up with you, can't leave your mind? How do you cope with the fact that your fighting for something that in their minds' will never happen. How do you g et past the heartbreak that has happen to the girl you like? How do you prove to the hard to get girls, that your not like a regular boy? Do you continue fighting? Do you continue pushing on? Or do you give up and move on? This topic came to me while listening to live your life by T.I and Rihanna. I honestly feel that if you got that gut feeling that you will suceed and get back to the top, by all means go head. Fight for love. Don't ever lose heart for what you believe in. The only thing that might hurt from this is constant rejection, heart breaks, and a low self esteem. You look back at this and see yourself as not good enough to make one happy. You feel as if you was a mistake, that nothing ever go right in your life. Don't ever let rejection from any member of the opposite sex dictate your happiness. We were all create for a special purpose, and our purpose was not to cry over people who don't want us. Just move on. If you feel as if you are fighting a losing battle, just move on. Nobody is special enought for you to let them cause you pain, and you just keep going. If this one don't realize what he has/had, then find another one who will. There are way prettier plants in the garden, it is just going to take a little time and effort, because nothing good is free. x3