When You Gone

One thing that annoys me in this world is when somebody is gone and people want to go hard for them, but when they was alive you was treating them with little or no respect. I don't understand the point of you going hard for them after they died, but when they was alive you treated them like trash. My family does exactly that. They will curse each other out even to the point of illness. But as soon as death strike, everybody want to start crying and acting like they cared so much. (I'm about to get personal), my mother and auntie had beef because of a real estate business in Florida. My auntie messed up my mom's credit, so my mother held a grudge against her for a year, even though she knew that my auntie was going through a series illness for over 3 years. She knew that my auntie was suffering from a illness that doctors weren't able to diagnose. It started to get worse and worse, and my mother anger for my auntie stayed the same. One Saturday, my mother got that phone call that my auntie has passed away. She stopped the car and started crying her heart out, talking about how she missed her sister. I was annoyed because like a minute ago you still had anger towards her. Also to all the fans of Michael Jackson, half of ya'll wasn't even feeling him like that. I know that he is human too and he died so ya'll showing ya'll respect, but some of ya'll was the same ones making fun of his voice, complexion, and his petefile accusations. This world is changing so greatly, and people are dropping by the number, so hatred and grudges are not important. Forgive that person that you stopped talking to because they didn't always have your best interest in heart at certain moments. Please forgive that person who turned their back at you, when you needed them the most. Forgive that boy who played you, when you loved him the most. Forgive that girl who hurt you when you was the most vulnerable. Please because life is too short. Love..

Loving a Mirror

Is it possible to be in love with a person who is exactly like you? I honestly don't think so. You will easily get frustrated and bored with them quickly. Two people who are in love cannot be the same. I am a proud believer in the term "Opposites attract." In many relationships that I have been in, I have never went out with the comedian girl, the girl that has a lot of boy friends, or that girl who is always hype like me. Opposites attract in this world, and create the best relationships. In life I always see that free spirit boy go for that moody girl that changes every minute. I think opposites attract because nobody truly wants a person just like themselves, but they want something new and unique. They want something that can balance them out. Who honestly believe that opposites don't attract? Who believes that two lovers who are just alike, will fall for each other? In the street you always see the softest girls with the hardest guys, the tallest boys with the shortest girls, and the free spirit girls with those soft dudes. This is not one of those deep blogs, just stating how I feel how this world is going. You need that person who can make you smile, when you are not use to smiling. You need that person who can tell you a joke when you are at the brink of commiting suicide. New things attract us, while same things bore us, because we already know what to expect. With new things, we only know one thing.. a rememorable experience.

My girl Gotta Girlfriend

Today my friend Antonya posed a great question to me. Is it ok to date a bisexual? In my book, I wouldn't feel truly comfortable, so I say no. I'm sorry for anybody's feeling that is being hurt but this how I feel. My personal answer is no, because dating a bisexual is against my morals. Also I am kind of jealous, so dealing with my girl looking at both boys and girls would feel very wierd. Many people see a bisexual girlfriend as a blessing because you get more options. But I dont see it like that. A girl that dates both girls and boys, is not my cup of tea. I would feel very awkward dating a girl that is bisexual, especially since most of my friends are girls. I would be scared bringing them around my friend. I would wonder if they think my bff is sexy or what. If they was a regular friend or a person on the street I wouldn't really have a problem because it is their choice. But when it comes to my love life, I have a problem. I know that bisexuals are humans, and many girls tell me that dating a bisexual girl is just like dating a regular girl. But when the table flips an a bisexual boy comes your way, how would you feel? Would you feel the same? Would you date him?

Is your past affecing your future or is it going to be your future"

This topic came from a great friend name Tati. Many times in life we suffer hurt from past lovers, and we just cant get over it. We can't let others love us because we are scared that if we give our all into the relationship, we may be hurt like we were a couple of months ago. We don't love the same way that we did a couple of months ago, because that way led us to be alone and depressed. We try to stay two steps ahead of our current lover so that we will never fall into the same trap twice. We don't want our past to be our future, so we never truly put our all into a relationship, because we know that pain can not happen effectively if we don't put our all into a relationship. This topic goes way past just love between ex and present lovers, it is way deeper. How about those girls who can't love a boy because they were taken advantage of by a father or step father. They were raped and molested, so now any guy that comes in their life, they fan off, because they don't trust men. They put themselves in a hole because they don't want to be open, because the last time they were open, some guy that they trusted to protect them, took advantage. They also don't trust women, because her mother never believed her, and let love get in the way of her trusting her daughter. Why does pain seem to resurface as soon as you find somebody who is willing to take away the pain? Why won't you let him in? I love this topic

Love beyond Limits

Niah (McDirty) posed a great topic for this blog "Is it ok to go after a bffs ex?" In my book, I honestly feel that it is ok to go after a best friend's ex based on the terms that they broke up. If they broke up over some petty stuff like lack of communication, it is ok. But if they broke up over a cheating situation, where the partner truly hurt the other partner, which led to anger or depression, you shouldn't pursue their ex. If the bestfriend is totally over the ex, and moved on, they shouldn't try to be selfish and jealous of you. I know many people is going to disagree with this blog today, but this is how I truly feel. Going out with a best friend's ex is nothing major especially since most of these relationships are not that serious, and it is not like you two were married. In many situations I have seen bestfriends tell their friends that it ok if they go out with their ex, because they over them, even though you are lying. As soon as they start going out jealousy and hidden anger starts to surface. It is ok to go out with a bestfriends' ex depending on the terms of the break up. No bestfriend should try to be selfish and hold on to their ex, and not expect somebody to go out with them because that it just not fair. You must also ask them for permission to go out with their ex, don't try do it behind their back, because that will mess up yall relationship. And no girlfriend or boyfriend is more important than a good friend. But if they say no, and you still want to pursue, well tell them that, because they are going to find out anyway. Thank You..

Between A rock and a hard place

What do you do when a your bestfriend is cheating on their girlfriend/boyfriend, who has become like a sister/brother to you? Who do you choose when one side is hurting another side secretly? Do you stay out of it or snitch, which may end in a broken relationship, and a broken bond between you and your bestfriend? Honestly I have been in the situation of a besfriend hurting a boyfriend, and I have just decided not to say anything. Am I wrong for not snitching? Also I have been on the other side to, where a girlfriend has hurt me, and her friend, who has become very close to me, has decided to stay out of it. Am I wrong for feeling angry at the friend? I feel like the biggest hyprocrite because I believe and support the statement that "once somebody is hurting your friend you stick up for them no matter what and cheating should always be snitched on." But does it come down to the fact of who you knew first? This blog is filled with alot of questions because I don't have any answers. This topic has been bothering me for a while not just because it is going on, but because I truly dont know the answer. Should I snitch? Or play my role as a bestfriend to the person I knew first, and keep it on the down low? Help

One side relationships

Have you ever gave so much for a person? Have you ever gave so much for a relationship? Have you ever put so much in a relationship not because your partner was doing the same, but you pushed it so that he/she would get the message. In many relationships only one partner is doing the work and the other is not fully into it. Many people jump into these things not knowing that relationships is a two way thing. You must equally give, as you must recieve. I talk to girls who give their all to boys who are cheating, or don't really care about them like. They constantly try to set up little dates, or little ways to hang out, but the boy bails everytime. I also talk to some boys who try everything to please their girl. They buy them gifts, stay happy so that they can be happy, or even slip in an extra I love you after every goodbye. But the boy doesn't get nothing in return, he doesn't get back the same effort. In some cases, it is just a sense of miscommunication. The partner who is not putting in much work, feels like they are doing everything right until the point when they are comfronted. In other cases, it is the definition of a true relationship that is confused between the boyfriend and girlfriend. Often only one side knows what truly goes into a relationship, while the other side doesn't truly know, or doesn't want to give so much into it. They are still scarred from their last relationship, where they put so much time and energy, then in the long run they ended up being heart broken. . PLEASE LEAVE COMMENTz. diz is a hard topic

Mind Games

Why do some girls love to play games? Why do they love to play with the mind of boys until they got them wrapped around their fingers? In my life I have met girls who gass up my head, and pull me in until I am feeling them the same way they are feeling me, and then at the last minute they pull out. Some of the girls that I know g ma head up to the point where I am feeling them on the same level or more, then they leave me on the curb by myself. I think boys play games but with girls it is way more sneaky. They play with us boys until they get what they want. I am not saying all girls are like this, but some are. I have ran into some girls who seemed like the dream girl, but as soon as I started liking them back, they changed up on me. Some girls have a way of doing and saying certain things knowing that it will cause a boy to feel a certain way, and they use that against us. Why can't yall just be upfront and say I am just in it for the game, or I don't really like you. Some girls do things that they know will send the message that they like you, but at the end of the day they say they just want to be friends. That don't make sense at all, why would you do what you do, or say what you say, if you don't feel me in that way. When boys act like this it gets me annoyed, but it hurts more with gurls, because they are suppose to be the mature ones and the ones that know the true definition and importance of love. smh.. its cool though because at the end of the day, you are just showing us that yall wasn't the right girl in the first place. NOT DIRECTED 2 ANYBODY.

The Power of the past

Do you think that it is ok or exes to go back out? Do you think that it is possible for exes to find love again? I am very iffy on this topic. I feel that exes, if possible, should go back out. I know that sometimes that the pain from you guys relationship can cause you to not want to go back out, because you remember those days that you was just fed up with him/her, and you wanted out. You remeber the days that you wished you never met them, you remember the dirty looks that they gave you. You remember the slick status that they put up, and try to g it like its not for you, but you secretly knew it was. But what do you you do when your heart is telling you that you want them back, despite the trials and tribulations. I think that you should follow your heart only if the pain that they caused is easily looked over. I don't think you should rely on your own opinion either, you need your true friends to tell you the truth. But if they did something taht was bad, but time had caused you to look over, well go after yours. After all "absence makes the heart grow fonder" i think thats the quote.lmbooooo. But anyway you should only enter the relationship again, if for sure you know that it wont just be another repreat, or another heart break or mistake. I honestly never went back out with an ex, just for the fact that I use to feel that once you done, you done, no double dipping. But now I'm older and now I think different. This blog is not necessarily about me, but what is going on in my world nowadays. To many people are scared to go back out, due to what ifs, if these what ifs got you wondering, than you should just forget about the lover and move on..

Suicide

For me it is hard to learn,
Inside of me is so dark that I am scared of sunshine,
I toss and turn,
I keep stressing my mind,
I rather peace than fame
I don’t know what to say, I look for peace but see I don't attain, I need an end to the game we play,
I am always lonely,
I can’t seem to shake my past, Madness to magnet keeps attracting me, And I try to run but see I'm not that fast,
I’m on the move can't seem to shake the shade,
Mind is at the edge as it creep, Within my dreams I see the life he made, The pain is deep,
I am as depressed as a widow,
Can’t eat nor sleep,
When it comes to my problems I am in the middle,
I need a way out from this nightmare,
I can’t think straight,
I have great fear,
I have no faith,
I know this is the end,
Goodbye my lovers,
And my friends.

My Sake

Girls fall in love, boys do to,
But when it’s all over, What is there to do,
Can’t forget bout it because the feeling remains,
Scared to trust another because it may happen again,
Can’t open up, Can’t be true,
What if the new one is just there to hurt you,
You can’t be stuck in the past,
But you can’t forget about the last,
That broke your heart,
That is the reason why this situation had a start,
I wished you wouldn’t have did that, for my sake,
Now the result is two heartbreaks,
Two hearts broken,
Emotions drowned in confusion,
Soaking,
Still didn’t tell you all they wanted to say,
Waiting for the right one, that can give you that Sweet Day,
Wishing they were there,
Love songs is all you can hear,
Yearning a mate,
For that special date,
Hope it’s not too late,
For my sake.

Questions part II

1) Why is it called hamburger, if you put beef in it?

2) Why do parents like to tell you to do things that they do theirselves?

3)Why do it feel like everybody is changing?

4)Why do girls feel like they know what love is better than boys?

5) Why is the prettiest girls always with the ugliest boys?

6) Why do people find it so hard to worship God?

7) Why do people consider Obama a black president?

8) Why when girls cheat, it is not called cheating?

9) Where do bird sleep?

10) Why do cats sound so nasty, when they having sex?

11) Why is life so stressful?

12) Why do boys like buttS?

13) Why do girls like them bad boys?

14) Are you taking avantage of a slut (excuse my language), when you sleep with her?

15) Why is masterbation ok?

16) Why don't girls propose to men?

Dark Spot

Have you ever had the dark spot that you cannot just cover in your life. It is not alway visible to your friends but you know its there. It holds you back from truly doing what you want to do, which may include loving yourself, loving others, or letting yourself be loved. This dark spot hurts, it causes pain that cannot be covered by the fake smiles that you put on when people ask how you doing. Or when you try laugh at a corney joke, trying to get your mind away from the pain. You try everything to get rid of this pain. You try let people have their way with you, you join certain groups, so that you feel accepted. You try drinking and smoking, so that when you high or drunk, you don't think about your problems. But when you finish, you realize that you feel way worser than before. You don't know what to do anymore. You cant go to your parents, because they are just going to judge you, and put you into a category. You can't even go to your closest friends, because they will look at you wierd. Even if they don't act wierd, its hard talking to them knowing that people keep changing up nowadays. Every minute they stop talking about you, and you hear from your enemies that your bestfriends are behind your back taking and laughing at you. You don't want to burden anybody with your problems, because your pride is burning inside of you. What to do to cover this dark spot. Nothing seems to work. The devil puts thoughts in your head that will cause to do things , but you know it will hurt you in the long run. I have felt this dark spot before but the solution is easy.. Trust God

Age

Do you honestly think that age is just a numbER? Do you think that lovecan be accomplished with a huge age difference taking place? I feel that age plays a huge role in love. Even though they say girls are more mature than guys, and that justifies why they date older guys. I think when you are still in your teens the biggest age difference should be 3 years. I say this because even though that boy or girl may be mature, there is still things that a 16 year old can understand about relationships, that can't sink into a 12 year old. Under 18, there is still much to learn about love, or just the whole topic of being in a relationship. Under 18, you kind of still expect one another to not get things fully, and just to go with the fly. I think once you past 25, age limits are off. There are little things for you to learn after you reach 25, but the big tips or the necessities should be learned already. It is quite fine for a 25 year old man to be going out with a 35 year old woman. Even though I said all I said already, I think it just sick when I see a 60 year old man with a 25 year old girl. That is nasty, and just selfish, on the man's part. I think some girls and boys just go out with people older than them, not because the are better lovers than the youngers, it just because of the age difference. With some it is just mindset that they have to go older, because these young ones don't know what they want.

Heart vs Mind

What do you do when you know you should't love her, but your hurt is still attached to her. Yall have been going out for like 2 years and she hurt you bad, you know you shouldn't go back to her, but your heart is telling you that things are better the second time around you. What are you suppoe to do when your boyfriend of 3 years, cheat on you, and then ask for you to take him back. The decision to choose between the heart and the mind is a hard one. You know what is right, bu sometimes that is not good enough for you. You want what feels good to you, and not necessarily what you think it is right. Your heart won't let your mind win, at the end of the day our hearts are way stronger then our minds. Love is a strong force that sometimes take over our whole body, and confuses our mind. It causes us to think right is wrong, and wrong is right. It causes us to do things that arent normal, but very wierd. I don't think that the mind is stronger than the heart. That is why sometimes we usually accpet the apologies from the people that hurt us the most. That is why we tend to go out back out with the same ones that didn't take our feelings into account when they cheated on us, or tried to embarass us to their friends to help their reputation. My heart is way stronger than my mind. I deleted girls at least 10 times, but it only last for like 3 days. I then add them back to see if their status is about me, or to see if they ok. I look at their screenname and picture us having a conversation about our feelings. Then I actually hit them up and realize that I broke the chain, but love rules over everything (L.O.E)

Long Distance

I honestly feel that a long distance relationship cannot work. How can a relationship work when the only thing you got is a voice, but nothing physical. I don't understand how a relationship can work when the two lovers don't see each other, but only talk on the phone, or on the computer. I know for sure that I wouldn't be able to do it because I am the type to get bored easily, even when my significant other is in the same city, so how would I deal with a long distance relationship. In a way, I would feel as if I'm holding her from exploring options that can do more for her than I can, due to my location. I don't believe that a relationship is very strong without phsyical contact, or at least your significant lover being close to you at all times. Some say that a long distance relationship can work, but I feel that if it do work, it will be weak, and the slightest thing that comes along can break the relationship. I don't think that no longer distant couple can say that at times they feel no sense of jealousy or sometimes wonder what your other half is actually doing. I feel that you guys are just holding each other back from finding love that will satisfy all their needs. I know for a fact that no long distant lover is happy at all times, they suffer from depression and anger for not being with their lovers. I know that sometimes your word is good, because the sweetest thing you say can make him/her blush, but sometimes you need to feel the firm arms of your boyfriend, or the gentle face of your girlfriend. You need that special warmth that only comes from that person that you truly are attracted to. You need that chemistry that can only be experienced on one-ones that you share in person. I don't think long-distance relationships work, sorry, what do you think?

Locked up

Locked up they won't let me out,
I don't even know what it's all about,
Leave me in here,
Without giving me a care,
Not even asking if I'm okay,
Just pass by my cell every single day,
This can't go on no longer,
Their arms, feet, and hands are stronger,
My faith is running dry,
Sometimes I want to cry,
But I look deep in my heart,
And realize from the start,
That I am a man,

With a light skin tan,

Why am i caged up by what you think,
By what you care,

By what I wear,

By what I give,

By what I deal,

Or how I feel,

For some reason I stay cheesin,

It is a new day,

it is a new season,
I am locked up,
But they will let me out.
~Michael George Haynes

Lover never fails

I honestly feel that once your in love with somebody, a piece of your heart will always belong to them. I don't think it is possible to be strongly in love with somebody, then after a couple of months after yall break up, you say that you feel nothing towards that person. I know that sometimes a period of hurt that a significant other cause, can cause you to be blind to the feelings or attractiveness that you two share. I strongly believe that love doesn't go away, especially when your deep in love. I still share a little bit of atrractiveness to all my exez, and I don't know if it will ever go away. Love is just one of those things that will never go away, I dont care how bad you was hurt or played. Love never fails, and it will never leave. I am not saying that you will be in love with a certain boyfriend/girlfriend for your whole life, but you guys will share some type of liking towards each other. I don't think no future lover should get mad about their lover having some type of feeling towards their ex because love is a strong thing. Also you must truly know what love is, and the only way you can know what love is, is if you experience it for yourself... Love takes it course..

Love in your face

Why do we sometimes look in all the wrong places for love, when we have love in our eyes. Why do we feen for a boy or girl that has a couple of rough edges when there is a boy/girl who is perfect for us. Why do we cry when we suffer from break ups to the same one who has been waiting for us to give them a chance but we can't see it. Why do we go for the boys that are the gangsters or the cheaters/players even though that is not our dream guy, and look over the sweetheart that is sitting at home waiting for you to choose him. Why do we choose those fast pretty girls that aren't necessarily our types, over that bff girl that we complain to, but secretly they desire us. Whe look for love in all the wrong places, and never just let love happen. We sometimes are in such a hurry for love to take its course that we will look over the most obvious answers for the complicated ones, not because the obvious ones are of less value, but it is because we tend to shift our focus in the search of love. I have been looked over for those boys who aren't the right ones, but I let it rock, because rejection is a powerful thing. I knew I was the right guy for her, and that she wouldn't be happy if she wasn't with me. I know how it feels to be looked over for a second place loser. I always just wanted to come out and say I am the right guy, he don't deserve you. Why do we sometimes take the bad boys in attempt to change them, instead of choose a boy that is already a good guy. Is easy boring?. Why do we sometimes take the bad girls in an attempt to look cool in front of our dudes and squads. Which is more important love or acceptance? PLEASE LADIEZ ND GENTZ. DONT OVERLOOK THE ONES THATS IN YOUR FACE.(shoutz 2 ayanna)

My Mom

In the past year my mom has been super hard on me than usual (which is 0Dee hard). She have been calling out all my faults and overexamining my imperfections. She has stopped talking to me for over two days each week, and she has been arguing with me constantly. I hate being home because I know that once I am home, my happiness is altered. She don't appreciate the good things I do but critizing the bad things I do. This morning she came up to me and asked me why I don't like her and I answered everything I do, you find a problem with. I told her that she is constantly on my back, and never giving me enough credit. She didn't answer me but I went downstairs and heard somebody crying. I found out that it was my mom, so I asked her why she was crying, she said "Mikey it is not like I don't like you, but I am just trying to make sure you go on the right path unlike your sister." My sister Andrea, was at the top of her class in South shore. Her teacher said that she dind't have to study for a test, it was in the last semester of 12th grade that she decided to hang around the wrong people. When she started hanging around the wrong people, she started cutting school, and eventually dropped out and had my nephew Andre. My mother was hurt and now she is on my back because she don't want that to happen to me. She blames herself for my sister dropping out, and she don't want me to be another failure. She want me to be thr first one in the family to go college and become something. I honestly felt like crying when I heard this, but somewhere deep inside of my heart I still feel that I should be given a littler more space. I look at the things she do more closely and differently that I looked at them earlier. I feel bad for hurtin her with my attitude, but I still feel that she should change her ways.

2000!

I came on my computer this afternoon and found out that I reached the 2000 mark and surpassed it. I am most grateful for people actually taking the time out to read my blog and also comment it. I want to acknowledge a couple of people for reading and sharing my blog with their friends and family.. Raymond, Leticia, Bri, Xavier, Chantal, Malcolm, Anna, Chanel, Coreece and Nahsiah. Sorry if I'm forgetting you right now, but this is kind of a freestyle. I solemnly promise to continue to uphold the truth and what I think is right or wrong. I apologize for anybody's feelings that have been hurt ever since I have started blogging, but hey..I got to keep it real. If any of you guys have any ideas of new blogs, please feel free to hit me up on the aim swagg.. sh0tta sto0kz810. Continue to spread the word about the blog, dont be selfish. Thank you guys! I appreciate your help in helping me become a better person. ND CONTINUE TO SPREAD THE WORD! ND CONTINUE TO SPREAD THE WORD!!!!!!

Boo vs. Husband

I was talking to a friend the other day (Onesa), and she was telling me that a boyfriend and a husband holds the same weight. She told me that a husband is nothing more than a husband. She say that boyfriends and husband are the same, due to the fact that the divorce rate is way too high right now, which means that the level of seriousness is the same. I told her that a boyfriend is less secure than a boyfriend. A husband made the transition from a boyfriend to a husband because he felt in his mind and heart that he found the right one. He took a vow to be there for that significant other through everything and that he will never leave her side. Even though some husbands take these vows for granted and walk out of a wife life just as a boyfriend do, a husband understands and acccepts his values at a higher level. Too many people are getting married for the wrong reasons, and also too many of them are jumping into marriage to quickly. Marriage is a serious step taken by two people who are very secure with their relationships, and want to be recognized as one, instead of just a boyfriend and a girlfriend. They want to tackle this world as one, realizing that trials and tribulations will come but they will stand strong as a tree with deep roots.. I don't think a boyfriend can compare to a husband.. Do you think it is the same?

Girlfriend

For me it is hard to specify what I actually want my girlfriend to be, but I have a general idea of what I want in a girlfriend. First and foremost I want a girlfriend who has some type of relationship with God. I don't think my girlfriend can truly love me or understand me if they don't love God. I don't want a girl that is too loud, but not one that too quiet. I want one that is down to earth, that I can tell her my deepest secrets, and know that she won't judge me. I don't want a tom boy girlfriend, but I don't want a girlfriend who is too stuck up or caught up in her beauty that it is starting to get to her head. I want a girl that can make me laugh, when I don't necesarily want to, and that keep positive energy aruoud me. I want a girl that is book smart, and that got a good head on her shoulders, and that don't carry alot of baggage. I want a girl that got imperfections. I know it sounds wierd but a girl with imperfections balances out my imperfections, and shows me that we both got thinks that we can work on. I want a girl that has a lil jealousy, but not too much where it is provoked into the shape of honor. A girl that can trust me because I have alot of girl friends, because I don't like being around boys. My girlfriend has to first be my friend, has to first be my shoulder to lean on,and the one to make me smile.. do you fit that?

Trusting a partner

Alot of times when a significant other hurts their partner or breaks up with them, they are shattered, they beome depressed, and don't know what to do with themselves. I view trust as a mountain. The more trust you instill in a person, the higher you go up this mountain. Being higher up the mountain, or putting more trust in a person doesn't mean that your secure in your life, or that they wont break your trust. It just means your higher up, and have more trust in somebody. And when your higher up, that makes it easier to fall, and when you have more trust in a person. it makes it harder to forgive and recover from the hurt. So when a person breaks your trust, it hurts so bad, because you are so high up on this mountain. It is a long drop and it hurts. In life, I learned to never trust somebody fully, but I should hold a piece of myself back. Trusting a girlfriend/boyfriend is so easy when you never fell before, but when you have suffered heart breaks it is hard trying to get back to the top of the mountain because you know what will happen if you get too high. Often in relationships partners put alot of trust in each other not because they deserve it, but it is because where they want them to be. They put trust in them because they don't want to believe that this person can hurt them even though all the odds are against them. Putting trust in somebody hurts, but holding back yourself from trusting somebody also hurts. It causes pain to know that yu are scared to trust somebody just because a past boyfriend has hurt you so bad that you are scared. Everytime he/she tells you that they are just hanging out with their opposite sex friends, you become scared because you know that your last lover cheated on you with your own friend. Trust is a severe thing, but falling is even more severe..

tEEN sEX

Why is there so much pressure to have sex as teen. Why do you have to have sex in order to be seen as popping or cool. I don't understand why people feel inferior if you are a virgin. If anything you are more superior because you chose not to be just another statistic in teen pressure. You chose to stand of what you believe in and be different from everybody else who is attempting to judge you. I think sex is a bond that should be shared with someone you truly love and that you can't live without, which is a marriage partner. I don't think teenagers saying that boyfriends/girlfriends fit that role because lil boys and lil girls are constantly changing, and they don't know what they truly want. I also feel that as teenagers, you don't know the true definition of love, or the significance of sex. For teenagers it is seen as a way to look right to your friends. I truly don't care what people say because I am very secure with who I am. If the person truly loves you, they can wait until marriage.

Cheating

This blog is going to require comments so I can get a better sense of where you are at. Do you think that when a boyfriend/girlfriend cheats that they should be forgiven. I have to say it depends on how long you guys been going out. If its 3 months and under I think its bad but not too bad to cheat. But once it gets past the 3 months mark you should be secure enough in your relationship that you don't want nothing else but your lover and what they have to offer. I also think it depends on how the lover is treating you. If the lover is constantly nagging you, always accusing you of doing something, and never understand where your coming from, they should expect that your unhappiness will either lead you to cheat or to break up with them. But if you don't break up with them, they should sense that something is terribly wrong. I have another question.. why when a boy cheats, its a huge thing, but when a girl cheats they expect you to forgive them because it was a small thing. I do not think thats fair especially since the boy tends to forgive them, but the girl tends to not forgive the boy as often. It is very wrong to punish cheating with cheating, because thats just dumb. If both of you guys are cheating then yall should just end it, because obviously it is not working. This quote is for those boyfriends number 2 and those girlfriends number 2 "if your not good enough for them to leave their lover for, then your not really that good" and "if they can cheat on their lover for you, imagine what they are doing to you". Please leave comments on this blog..

Close friendz

Nowadays its mad hard to find a friend that is really down for you, and that will stand with you through thick and thin. It is especially hard to find a friend that will stand with me because I am a confused boy, who changes up alot. It is not because I choose to change up my swagg it is because I don't know where my life is going. So this blog is shouting out my close friends, and the people I appreciate...

Leticia - For understanding me through everything, and telling me the truth when I didn't really want to hear it. For being there for me, when I wasn't really there for myself. For giving me the chance to over you my shoulder to cry on, when you had your gloomy moment.

Bri - For helping me become a better Christian, making me smile, and helping me to realize that I should take things one day at a time. For me finding a person that was very similar to me, and that I can trust with anything.

Joanne - For being the laidback person you are. For smiling and laughing at my jokes, and being the unique person you are.. LOVE YOU

Bianca - For giving me the oppurtunity to vent to you. For you being so down to earth and willing to listen to me, when you necessarily didnt want to. For being the sweet and loving person you are.

Chantal - For giving me the chance to listen and help you during certain times. For understanding things that happen, and for being so cool. Thank you for being a shoulder to lean on and a friend to keep.

Bush - For giving me great laughs and for listening for my girl troubles.lol

Juh juh - For laughing at me when it was uncalled for, teaching me that there is always a positive side to things.

Bobby G - For letting me see that I am not the only one that go through certain things (did you think bout it.lol) and for being a lil bro to me.

RaH- For helping me realize that I am not the only one with problems, and that sometimes others are worsee than mines. We recently became mad tight and I want it to stay that way.

Nicole - For being a lil sister, and helping me realize that life is too good to be taken serious.

Shanise- For showing me the bright side to things. For showing me that I can make it through anyting. LOVE YOU

Prisca - For helping me when I had my problems and for always being on my side.lol

"PEOPLE LIKE 2 GET ROSES WHILE DE CAN STILL SMELL EM" love you guys